maybe we all do get what is coming to us eventually
Back at home now and as bored as ever. Everyone is gone and no one calls me anymore. I'm making a conscious effort to say goodbye to all that is toxic and high chool in my life. I've only now begun ridding my life of those who purposefully cause drama and hurt and bad feelings. Right now i feel like i'm playing a waiting game, waiting for something, anything, to happen and for my real life to begin. I feel like I'm stuck at a standstill while the whole world rushes by me in a blur. I feel forgotten by those I love and ignored by those who havn't managed to forget me yet. The person who I talk to most of the time about these things would say "oh well it was your choice to stay home this fall" then shrug it off and offer no consolation. this shit sucks. I want someone to understand me and how I feel and help me deal. I know I'm the only person who can make this any better, maybe i just want someone to listen and say something encouraging. I don't know, life sucks when all your friends leave and NOT ONE thinks enough of you to call.