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I still don't know what to think, and with this weather-it's raining like 24/7-that's all there really is to do. It's at times like these that I wish I wasn't smart, that I didn't have a nonstop mind. Sometimes it seems like my mind never stops. Maybe that's why I'm not sleeping well still. That, and I'm still worried about what happened. I keep expecting someone to pop out of a dark alley or something silly like that. *snort* I think Miya's paranoia is rubbing off on me.
*mutter* I really need some more cigarettes...not that I'd be able to smoke them in this weather. It kinda makes me want to go home, but it's probably really cold over there by now. I'm not sure which is better: rain or cold. *sigh* And what if Miya's right? What if that weird digimon was the one to comment on that closed post? Maybe it would be better to stay here, for the team. Then I wouldn't get in the way of whatever is going to go down. And I'm almost positive that it's going to be something big and very ugly.
I wish I wasn't a Digidestined. I wish none of this had happened. Maybe then Ken would still be alive and no one would have gotten hurt with all the stuff we've gone through. It would be worth it, giving up meeting everyone and Armadillomon, if everyone could just be happy and alive...if only he was still living...I would give anything, even if I couldn't be with him then...
*mutter* I really need some more cigarettes...not that I'd be able to smoke them in this weather. It kinda makes me want to go home, but it's probably really cold over there by now. I'm not sure which is better: rain or cold. *sigh* And what if Miya's right? What if that weird digimon was the one to comment on that closed post? Maybe it would be better to stay here, for the team. Then I wouldn't get in the way of whatever is going to go down. And I'm almost positive that it's going to be something big and very ugly.
I wish I wasn't a Digidestined. I wish none of this had happened. Maybe then Ken would still be alive and no one would have gotten hurt with all the stuff we've gone through. It would be worth it, giving up meeting everyone and Armadillomon, if everyone could just be happy and alive...if only he was still living...I would give anything, even if I couldn't be with him then...