MIA
So. I've really been missing from LJ for a while.
I suppose this can be attributed to a few things.
One. Failing out of university.
...
Yeah, there's not a whole lot else to say about that.
Two. I've been spending a lot of time developing a (gasp) original world and doing a lot of writing in it.
I spend a lot of time on it.
Three. Thinking. I know, it's dangerous.
A good chunk of the time not spent thinking about Two have been spent thinking about me, my life, who I am, etc.
And mostly I've been coming up short. I'm not happy with where I am, what I'm doing, where I'm going, who I am. Pretty much everything.
And while I obviously didn't learn a whole lot academically at university I did learn one thing. I am sick and tired of letting people walk over me. So I got myself a spine.
It makes me feel good, seeing something wrong with me/my life and fixing it.
A lot of people who've been close to me apparently don't like the direction my spine is taking me, but I have to do this. Maybe it'll be a mistake. Maybe they're all right and I'm fucking everything I've got up. But that's not the point. The point is that I'm doing something.
Well, that and that I'm not happy with what I've got, so it really doesn't matter if I do fuck it up.
And... yes. Thats it. Just needed to articulate that, I guess.
I suppose this can be attributed to a few things.
One. Failing out of university.
...
Yeah, there's not a whole lot else to say about that.
Two. I've been spending a lot of time developing a (gasp) original world and doing a lot of writing in it.
I spend a lot of time on it.
Three. Thinking. I know, it's dangerous.
A good chunk of the time not spent thinking about Two have been spent thinking about me, my life, who I am, etc.
And mostly I've been coming up short. I'm not happy with where I am, what I'm doing, where I'm going, who I am. Pretty much everything.
And while I obviously didn't learn a whole lot academically at university I did learn one thing. I am sick and tired of letting people walk over me. So I got myself a spine.
It makes me feel good, seeing something wrong with me/my life and fixing it.
A lot of people who've been close to me apparently don't like the direction my spine is taking me, but I have to do this. Maybe it'll be a mistake. Maybe they're all right and I'm fucking everything I've got up. But that's not the point. The point is that I'm doing something.
Well, that and that I'm not happy with what I've got, so it really doesn't matter if I do fuck it up.
And... yes. Thats it. Just needed to articulate that, I guess.