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this is going to be a bunch of complaning so if you don't want to hear it then don't read it.
sometimes shit sucks.
sometimes is now. it seems like as hard as i try to make things ok it just won't happen. im probably talking about something none of you have ANY idea what i am talking about but that doesn't matter. i really need to talk to someone. anyone. but it seems like i can't. im not tlaking to my doctor because it is annoying to have to pay someone to listen to you complain about shitty things. and i can't talk to my friends because they are either way to cracked out on prescription drugs or just don't care. my summer started off amazing. what happend to that?
i want to go swimming. first i need to loose a couple of pounds and then i will be seen in a bathing suit. once i get down to 120 i will be happy. that wasa c omplete lie. i won't be happy. it is so annoying to have such a fucking messed up mental image of yourself. tv has fucked us all over.
last night started off extremely sucky. i was at joe muggs and drama was started. i coudln't take it anymore. i just got up and walked out. i called miller ot se what she was doing and we hung out. it turned into one of the best nights i have had in a LONG time. im glad to have one of my best friends back. sonics has the BEST tator tots in the world. not even kidding. back to the joe muggs thing. i will not be going there anymore. everytime i am there it puts me in a bad mood and jjust makes me really mean. but as soon as i leave that place im back to my normal retarded self. i can't go there anymore. the ONLY reason i will be going there is to say hey to katherine while she is at work.
there is one person right now who actually makes me feel wanted and cared about. it is a good feeling. its so genuine it sort of scares me. but i think i like it. its nice to be called randomly just to say hey and to see when we can meet up and hang out and do the most RANDOM stuff in the world. but its fine. really fun. it brings a smile to my face. thanks.
sometimes shit sucks.
sometimes is now. it seems like as hard as i try to make things ok it just won't happen. im probably talking about something none of you have ANY idea what i am talking about but that doesn't matter. i really need to talk to someone. anyone. but it seems like i can't. im not tlaking to my doctor because it is annoying to have to pay someone to listen to you complain about shitty things. and i can't talk to my friends because they are either way to cracked out on prescription drugs or just don't care. my summer started off amazing. what happend to that?
i want to go swimming. first i need to loose a couple of pounds and then i will be seen in a bathing suit. once i get down to 120 i will be happy. that wasa c omplete lie. i won't be happy. it is so annoying to have such a fucking messed up mental image of yourself. tv has fucked us all over.
last night started off extremely sucky. i was at joe muggs and drama was started. i coudln't take it anymore. i just got up and walked out. i called miller ot se what she was doing and we hung out. it turned into one of the best nights i have had in a LONG time. im glad to have one of my best friends back. sonics has the BEST tator tots in the world. not even kidding. back to the joe muggs thing. i will not be going there anymore. everytime i am there it puts me in a bad mood and jjust makes me really mean. but as soon as i leave that place im back to my normal retarded self. i can't go there anymore. the ONLY reason i will be going there is to say hey to katherine while she is at work.
there is one person right now who actually makes me feel wanted and cared about. it is a good feeling. its so genuine it sort of scares me. but i think i like it. its nice to be called randomly just to say hey and to see when we can meet up and hang out and do the most RANDOM stuff in the world. but its fine. really fun. it brings a smile to my face. thanks.