Ain't in shape
Felt abit sick today, but no worries, I am just lack of sleep.
Have been sleeping later than 1am, then woke up at 6-ish, my body heat accumulated.
Felt extremely tired today, and I was totally not in shape.
In lectures, in MMS session as well. Couldn't focus while others are happily playing with the heart model, discussing. Forcing myself to read the questions and instructions again and again, yet they simply couldn't stick to my mind.
Apart from that, haven't really study the lecture about heart, I felt quite blank when Paul and Lawrence were helping me in identifying all the structures.
Argh!!!!
Slept for 2 hours in the afternoon, (supposed to be a power nap for 30 minutes, but I couldn't wake up.)
I feel much better now, maybe later will go for jogging after finished revising. Now I scared later couldn't sleep at night. Hah hah...
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I have always wanted to be a confident person. As I know how important self-confidence is. So for years, I have been trying my best out to be confident. I joined and took part in every single events which required myself to talk confidently, act confidently, explain confidently, interview confidently.... etc.
Perhaps more precisely, I was acting confidently, yet it didn't really reflect myself. I still feel inferior to other people.
To make an excuse, I can say I am always surrounded by outstanding and excellent people. But I know this is not a good reason.
No matter how hard I have been trying to improve myself, I always feel that I am one step behind the others, or even 2 steps, 3 steps, or more. I am not confident in what I do, I am not confident in what I say, I am not confident in how I look...
And perhaps I care too much on how people look at me. It's always easier to say than to do it. I am pro in telling people, "Don't care about how people look at you, as long as you know you are always trying your best."
Hehe, ironically, it's sickening to me every time I think of how people think of me.
Though I might have tried very hard.
Or, I have not been doing great? Hmm...
I am tired of acting confident. But this is what I have to do everyday, still im sucks in that.
What I should do to grow my innermost pure confidence?
Have been sleeping later than 1am, then woke up at 6-ish, my body heat accumulated.
Felt extremely tired today, and I was totally not in shape.
In lectures, in MMS session as well. Couldn't focus while others are happily playing with the heart model, discussing. Forcing myself to read the questions and instructions again and again, yet they simply couldn't stick to my mind.
Apart from that, haven't really study the lecture about heart, I felt quite blank when Paul and Lawrence were helping me in identifying all the structures.
Argh!!!!
Slept for 2 hours in the afternoon, (supposed to be a power nap for 30 minutes, but I couldn't wake up.)
I feel much better now, maybe later will go for jogging after finished revising. Now I scared later couldn't sleep at night. Hah hah...
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I have always wanted to be a confident person. As I know how important self-confidence is. So for years, I have been trying my best out to be confident. I joined and took part in every single events which required myself to talk confidently, act confidently, explain confidently, interview confidently.... etc.
Perhaps more precisely, I was acting confidently, yet it didn't really reflect myself. I still feel inferior to other people.
To make an excuse, I can say I am always surrounded by outstanding and excellent people. But I know this is not a good reason.
No matter how hard I have been trying to improve myself, I always feel that I am one step behind the others, or even 2 steps, 3 steps, or more. I am not confident in what I do, I am not confident in what I say, I am not confident in how I look...
And perhaps I care too much on how people look at me. It's always easier to say than to do it. I am pro in telling people, "Don't care about how people look at you, as long as you know you are always trying your best."
Hehe, ironically, it's sickening to me every time I think of how people think of me.
Though I might have tried very hard.
Or, I have not been doing great? Hmm...
I am tired of acting confident. But this is what I have to do everyday, still im sucks in that.
What I should do to grow my innermost pure confidence?