hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
So this weekend was good... I was home, spending some QT with the metzler ladies.... my sister was borderline unbearable, having relationship issues with her boy and whatnot, and my mom was her usual insane self... it was hardly relaxing... well, the met and artwork were relaxing, but the trip itself was hectic, stressful, and not exactly what the doctor ordered for me.... which is why I've decided to stay here this weekend and literally just VEG in binghamton, with nothing to do but watch movies, sleep, and play piano...... ah, the life. It's just muchly needed, to actually chill for a few days... i've been going nonstop since january 5th, when I came back for Figaro.
Let's see... well... last night I had a kind of disheartning realization that I again might be putting faith in something that isn't worthy of such hope... and i was really upset for like an hour... and Jon was here... and... we were sitting on my bed, each doing our own reading and studying and i had one tear going down my face, and was trying to hold it in, since I feel bad that Jon always has to see me a wreck, lol... and he leaned over and drew a big heart in his notebook and held it up, and looked at me... and it is definitely the warmest sweetest thing anyone has done for me in a long time. and I feel lame telling this cheesy moment in a stupid ass livejournal...this doesnt give the moment justice, but it made me smile a few times today, and I hoped it would make you smile too.. there are boys, or should I say men, like Jon in this world...... if this doesnt give you hope i dont know what does.....
Let's see... let's see... nothing much else... I've decided to stay here this summer too I think... i miss my mom, a lot... but I need this independence to be happy... i neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed it...
My dad sent me the Into the Woods soundtrack today... things like that make it hard for me to hate him.... oye.... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhh..
To know that i have a stepmother and 2 step siblings that I've never met is disturbing... i think a million soundtracks can't make up for his fuck up.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. Off to midterm studying... just what i'm in the mood for!!!! -KATE-
Let's see... well... last night I had a kind of disheartning realization that I again might be putting faith in something that isn't worthy of such hope... and i was really upset for like an hour... and Jon was here... and... we were sitting on my bed, each doing our own reading and studying and i had one tear going down my face, and was trying to hold it in, since I feel bad that Jon always has to see me a wreck, lol... and he leaned over and drew a big heart in his notebook and held it up, and looked at me... and it is definitely the warmest sweetest thing anyone has done for me in a long time. and I feel lame telling this cheesy moment in a stupid ass livejournal...this doesnt give the moment justice, but it made me smile a few times today, and I hoped it would make you smile too.. there are boys, or should I say men, like Jon in this world...... if this doesnt give you hope i dont know what does.....
Let's see... let's see... nothing much else... I've decided to stay here this summer too I think... i miss my mom, a lot... but I need this independence to be happy... i neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed it...
My dad sent me the Into the Woods soundtrack today... things like that make it hard for me to hate him.... oye.... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhh..
To know that i have a stepmother and 2 step siblings that I've never met is disturbing... i think a million soundtracks can't make up for his fuck up.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. Off to midterm studying... just what i'm in the mood for!!!! -KATE-