..... rough couple of days...
So.... it's been a rough couple of days, as indicated by subject heading. Nothing majorly bad has happened, but... a few things I was hopeful about turned out to be disappointments.. but, on the whole, I'm proud of the way I'm handling myself with these "problems"..... thank god I've moved away from my "dark" behaviors... and have put a stop to creating more and more scars, physically and emotionally. Big steps... BIG STEPS.
And fuck, I should be fucking proud of myself... and thankful for my family and best friends... sigh..... I seriously don't think I would be alive right now if it wasn't for them, which is the shocking realization I have recently made. Had i not had them... i don't even want to think about what I might have done to myself..... perhaps this is way too much information for readers... but... today marks the 6 month no-cutting anniversary. Perhaps why I'm so intensely thankful today... My mom's birthday is on wednesday, she turns 57.. and I bought her gold and diamond earrings that cost way too much than what i have to spend, but fuck... she deserves it... she deserves everything... I miss her and can't wait to be home with her this saturday... I feel the need, on this big anniversary day, to give her such a big hug and thank you... She has made it possible for me to see again... to be happy... to love... to feel... all the things i lost in Boston (damn city). I feel strong, and stable, and proud, and loved, and talented, and smart, and... well rounded and content in my own skin. HOLY FUCK... who would have thought 3 years ago when I was severly unstable that those words would be coming out of my fingers... WOW.. amazing....
OK, well... I was in need of some self-admiration there, haha... I had to sing today in Mary Burgess' Studio.. and she was so proud of me... I'm so happy to have that teacher-student relationship again.. I missed that closeness I had with Mrs. Zimet when I went away to school... think I have it again finally... Eapen and I got plastered saturday night and saw Alcestis... It was uber-bizarre, but the chorus DEFINITELY impressed me and stole the show away from the Greek Terror... she needs to go eat some souflaki and suck it. hahah, i've never met her...but i hate her from the stories i've heard (lol).
This has turned into quite the novel... does anyone even read this piece of shit? (besides my suite..... i know those losers have nothing better to do heheheh)
Leave me comments... i like to see the love........ KATE
And fuck, I should be fucking proud of myself... and thankful for my family and best friends... sigh..... I seriously don't think I would be alive right now if it wasn't for them, which is the shocking realization I have recently made. Had i not had them... i don't even want to think about what I might have done to myself..... perhaps this is way too much information for readers... but... today marks the 6 month no-cutting anniversary. Perhaps why I'm so intensely thankful today... My mom's birthday is on wednesday, she turns 57.. and I bought her gold and diamond earrings that cost way too much than what i have to spend, but fuck... she deserves it... she deserves everything... I miss her and can't wait to be home with her this saturday... I feel the need, on this big anniversary day, to give her such a big hug and thank you... She has made it possible for me to see again... to be happy... to love... to feel... all the things i lost in Boston (damn city). I feel strong, and stable, and proud, and loved, and talented, and smart, and... well rounded and content in my own skin. HOLY FUCK... who would have thought 3 years ago when I was severly unstable that those words would be coming out of my fingers... WOW.. amazing....
OK, well... I was in need of some self-admiration there, haha... I had to sing today in Mary Burgess' Studio.. and she was so proud of me... I'm so happy to have that teacher-student relationship again.. I missed that closeness I had with Mrs. Zimet when I went away to school... think I have it again finally... Eapen and I got plastered saturday night and saw Alcestis... It was uber-bizarre, but the chorus DEFINITELY impressed me and stole the show away from the Greek Terror... she needs to go eat some souflaki and suck it. hahah, i've never met her...but i hate her from the stories i've heard (lol).
This has turned into quite the novel... does anyone even read this piece of shit? (besides my suite..... i know those losers have nothing better to do heheheh)
Leave me comments... i like to see the love........ KATE