happy birthday america and grandma
i am pretty fucking depressed.
pretty much all of my friends that i have made in gainesville have moved. and it pretty much sucks. wow. i just used the word pretty like 3 times.
i know some other people here, but i dunno. i like to do stuff kinda often, and i don't think i can do that with some people. i don't know if they want to see me several times a week or almost everday. normally i like to chill out some days and not do stuff everyday. but its summer, and i have nothing to do, and i accomplished something big by geting my a.a. finally, and i want to enjoy myself. i want to go to the river or the beach or the pool. i want to go to parties. or i just want to hang out with people and be silly... plus being broke sucks, and i know i need to look for a job, but i keep procrastinating doing that.
i guess i am just depressed cus i miss my family and i miss my friends. Its been 7 months and 1 day since i have seen my parents. that is a real long time. i haven't seen my brother in about a year. there is just this empty place in my heart. i talked to my nanna today to wish her a happy birthday, and she said that sushi still has this cough. she has had it since around mothers day. she took her back to the vet and he said that its just cus she is old and there is nothing that can be done. i love that dog. i know she is 14, and that is old for a dog, but it makes me really sad to think that she might not be here much longer.
i just wish that the tag light on my car will start working so i can go out to these parties tonight and enjoy myself.
i don't know why i always come back to this depressed state. i can be fine for a while, but something always happens and it makes me think about some of the bad stuff and then i can't help but feel sad and angry.
some people who are supposedly your best friends can really suck to.
i need to meet some new people.
also, all i want to do is learn how to play the drums and get better at my guitar and start a bamd.
also, i pretty much hate north korea.
pretty much all of my friends that i have made in gainesville have moved. and it pretty much sucks. wow. i just used the word pretty like 3 times.
i know some other people here, but i dunno. i like to do stuff kinda often, and i don't think i can do that with some people. i don't know if they want to see me several times a week or almost everday. normally i like to chill out some days and not do stuff everyday. but its summer, and i have nothing to do, and i accomplished something big by geting my a.a. finally, and i want to enjoy myself. i want to go to the river or the beach or the pool. i want to go to parties. or i just want to hang out with people and be silly... plus being broke sucks, and i know i need to look for a job, but i keep procrastinating doing that.
i guess i am just depressed cus i miss my family and i miss my friends. Its been 7 months and 1 day since i have seen my parents. that is a real long time. i haven't seen my brother in about a year. there is just this empty place in my heart. i talked to my nanna today to wish her a happy birthday, and she said that sushi still has this cough. she has had it since around mothers day. she took her back to the vet and he said that its just cus she is old and there is nothing that can be done. i love that dog. i know she is 14, and that is old for a dog, but it makes me really sad to think that she might not be here much longer.
i just wish that the tag light on my car will start working so i can go out to these parties tonight and enjoy myself.
i don't know why i always come back to this depressed state. i can be fine for a while, but something always happens and it makes me think about some of the bad stuff and then i can't help but feel sad and angry.
some people who are supposedly your best friends can really suck to.
i need to meet some new people.
also, all i want to do is learn how to play the drums and get better at my guitar and start a bamd.
also, i pretty much hate north korea.