The Big 50
Wow, I thought turning 50 was going to be something magical. I hear people speak of their magical moment when they hit 50. The only thing magical about it is you realize how fast the time goes. Life is truly too short. I'm happy to still be alive no doubt about that, however, I gotta make the change if I want what I want. Horrible marriage that I keep going back into after leaving time and time again. I'm not doing justice for either of us. She's a good gal, she and I just don't work well together as a team. I love her, she loves me and we had 5 great kids together. But, the business of marriage is much more than that. Just had Back Surgery in November. What a huge thing that was. I knew going into it that celebrating for my birthday in February was out. I knew it would not be enough recovery time to do nothing. But, my doctors were surprised to see I'm not needing the walker anymore. Kinda thinking those guys were not sure I'd be able to walk again period. But, I fooled them.(My nurses were cute!) Still have a long way to go for recovery, but, glad to be walking again. Now have to learn to be selfish and think about myself for a change. Also, starting pretty much from scratch after more bad decisions. Working nights again....Oh my how did you get here again dude! Come on Kelvin you can do this Brother Man! Gotta have the talk with myself everyday.