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so, random update. Kieran is going through a depressive episode and hasn't been out of his house since sunday. he's going to see the doctors this afternoon so that he can fix his problem. damn, why has ativan gotta be only for people with anxiety disorders... anyways, I'm gonna try to get prescribed a better anti-depressant this time. one that wont leave me feeling like a zombie, gaining 20 pounds, breaking out with insane acne, not sleeping/sleeping all the time, having sexual dysfunction or dry mouth (another form of sexual dysfunction) and yes ladies and gents those are all side effects that I have gotten from anti-depressants. and I really don't want to go on them, but I really don't have a choice anymore. I can't function right now. I'm crying alot nowadays. I cried watching grey's anatomy, I cried putting on my socks in the morning. I cried because my brother and my mom were yelling. I need to do SOMETHING. so, for all ye who were wondering why you haven't seen me at school all week, this is why. because in spite of putting in so much effort, and trying so hard to do well this year, it's all falling out from underneath me, and I've gotta try to get it back under control.