Rascal Flatts - ""
first off... i jus wanna say thanx to all you who left me a sweet lil "don't worry" note on my last entry....
well... as it turns out... things have jus gone down hill for me here lately... i feel like shit... i feel small... i feel like there's nothin for me right now... we're on a break... i can't talk to him at all... he won't answer his phone... so obviously he ain't returning my calls... doesn't responde to my messages... and all i want to do is to tell him that i am going to carlie's wedding and that i want to know if he'll go with me... that's the only reason why i even try and get a hold of him... and it's so hard to not talk to him... we used to talk or see each other every day... and to go from that, to nothing at all is that hardest thing i've ever had to go thru... i jus wish i could jus talk to him for a few minutes... it hurts the most when he doesn't answer... is it another girl?... is he tired of me?... is he scared about something?... what is it?... that's all i wanna know... i jus don't understand... he was the only thing i thought i could always count on... but i guess i was wrong... i miss him...
saying goodbye is the worst.. whether it's forever or just for a little while.....stolen from lee-suh...
so i hung out with kasie the other night.... i miss hangin out with her... we always got along soo well... we went to a pool hall on rt4... micheal's or something along those lines... and we totally could barely evn play because some guy kept coming up to us hitting on us.... he even kissed out hands... uhh... xcuse me!! but i don't know you--don't kiss my hand!! and stupid spicks kept saying things to us and what not... i hate guys!!!! they're gross!!!
this saturday i have my first miami fastpitch game... i'm soo excited... i got 3 games.... but i'm missin the last one to go to carlie's wedding and reception...