Its been awhile!
"Welcome back to LiveJournal"
So I have obviously been on hiatus from LiveJournal for awhile, after all, once facebook came, all the rest of the virtual world ceased to exist for me!
I was sitting here looking at my background on the computer, which is a picture of myself (of course), but it was taken on something close to the top of the world. And every time I see this photo all I can think of is freedom and how right now life makes complete sense. I look back at my summer and I feel very accomplished.
I loved and I lost, that was quite the experience. I struggled and I succeeded, which is the most amazing feeling ever. I lived what I deemed every day to its full potential following what I wanted to do. Selfish some may think, but it allowed me to release myself from the past year. To look back, recognize, celebrate and then to look to the future with clearer eyes, a larger heart and better sense of what I think life is all about! At times over the summer I thought, hey, I should go virtual and write my thoughts, especially through the losing part, but it never felt right. I have not journaled at all, not even with a paper and a pen, and for once in my life I survived without spewing my thoughts and emotions onto paper or a screen. I still believe in the full release that spewing has for emotions and situations though!
After everything I feel I have experienced this past year, yes it has been a year since I moved into res, I just feel more at ease, perhaps that is just because I practice with Rodney Yee every morning and he over uses the word. There is a stillness and a calmness in my life at the moment and I am amazed. The other amazing thing is that I am not choking this feeling by grasping it and trying to figure out all the ways I can keep it for longer. I have let myself go and just experience what is to come. And who knows what that is!
My life is as busy as it usually is but I have added an amazing physical side to my life. Bouldering, biking, hiking and even the standard gym. This physical aspect has made me realize just how much all parts of person affect your soul and mentality. Not only can you challenge yourself academically, and exercise our amazing right to protest things we feel are wrong, and to socialize and keep content our need for companionship but we need to exercise our bodies. No one single part of your being can ever fully fulfill you. That is the beauty of being human. We are complex and that is what makes us amazing!
I love life and I needed to share that with whoever still reads LiveJournal. I hope everyone can feel this sense of peace and can celebrate who they are and what they love regardless of any barriers that are percieved!
Peace and hugs,
Kelsie
So I have obviously been on hiatus from LiveJournal for awhile, after all, once facebook came, all the rest of the virtual world ceased to exist for me!
I was sitting here looking at my background on the computer, which is a picture of myself (of course), but it was taken on something close to the top of the world. And every time I see this photo all I can think of is freedom and how right now life makes complete sense. I look back at my summer and I feel very accomplished.
I loved and I lost, that was quite the experience. I struggled and I succeeded, which is the most amazing feeling ever. I lived what I deemed every day to its full potential following what I wanted to do. Selfish some may think, but it allowed me to release myself from the past year. To look back, recognize, celebrate and then to look to the future with clearer eyes, a larger heart and better sense of what I think life is all about! At times over the summer I thought, hey, I should go virtual and write my thoughts, especially through the losing part, but it never felt right. I have not journaled at all, not even with a paper and a pen, and for once in my life I survived without spewing my thoughts and emotions onto paper or a screen. I still believe in the full release that spewing has for emotions and situations though!
After everything I feel I have experienced this past year, yes it has been a year since I moved into res, I just feel more at ease, perhaps that is just because I practice with Rodney Yee every morning and he over uses the word. There is a stillness and a calmness in my life at the moment and I am amazed. The other amazing thing is that I am not choking this feeling by grasping it and trying to figure out all the ways I can keep it for longer. I have let myself go and just experience what is to come. And who knows what that is!
My life is as busy as it usually is but I have added an amazing physical side to my life. Bouldering, biking, hiking and even the standard gym. This physical aspect has made me realize just how much all parts of person affect your soul and mentality. Not only can you challenge yourself academically, and exercise our amazing right to protest things we feel are wrong, and to socialize and keep content our need for companionship but we need to exercise our bodies. No one single part of your being can ever fully fulfill you. That is the beauty of being human. We are complex and that is what makes us amazing!
I love life and I needed to share that with whoever still reads LiveJournal. I hope everyone can feel this sense of peace and can celebrate who they are and what they love regardless of any barriers that are percieved!
Peace and hugs,
Kelsie