A new Frustration!
Hello Boys and Girls!
So for a vent....
Why must some people be so frustrating? Why do people not go further, why do give the impression the want more but then stop. Why arent all people candid. Why cannot we not live in an open candid society that does not play silly games and is honest. Will talk about anything and everything in the prescence of anyone they find pleasant. And why do I want to know everyone I meet on a next level. Some people seem interesting but they become very frustrating. I guess this is why a) I have learned to pick and choose the people I embark on this journey with and b) why I avoid anything but face to face convos, msn, txts and phone. Its so easy to say things when not face to face, if you can say them face to face then you know they are true and worth the breath and thought. Then again some people just dont share anything even when you get the impression they want to or will. But then there are people who I feel comfortable saying things to not face to face and know that it will be taken the same way. Ack I am just frustrated with some people, who want to talk to me about issues but a) wont do it face to face or b) just shut down. I want to say some people are dumb, but that is mean.
I am also frustrated, and this frustration hasnt come up for awhile, with people who think they can place me in a box. Perhaps it is because I dont want to be placed in a box that I rebel against other people putting me in one, but I dont think being in my prescence for just a few moments can really give you a complete understanding of who, I, Kelsie Stafford Maas, am. And I dont know, I have so many thoughts that are complex and I like thinking and analysing, and I have contradicting likes and damn it, dont make me feel as if you feel you know me WHEN YOU DONT! Why dont I just get out of this situation, because perhaps I see that something extraordinary could come from it, but it could be a long way down the road.....therefore, I will probably give up soon. When trying to live in the moment, thinking to the future is not very good. Fuck I am just frustrated with one individual, but in the past weeks a few have provoked these feelings.
Why arent others as open as I feel I am. Why? Why? Why? (my favourite question, and others most feared question)
And why do I fear upsetting people by challenging them? Because then they may not like me. I just want to be liked by everyone.
I envy people who can be calm and just go with the flow. I want to be someone who can let things slide, but I am not a person who can. I am passionate, curious, challenging and challenged. I need to just embrace this, and try to understand when people cannot understand that!
Anyways, that is my vent, got some of it out.
As for an afterthought....
Things that make a week good!
1. clean toilets (no pee stains!)
2. Mothers taking daughters for lunches!
3. Longboarding and police statements
4. Pride
5. Prejudice
6. Friends
7. Widen photos on the internet
Have a good one, peace, Kelsie