Yeah, pronounce Gi-a!
Hello boys and girls!
My whole year away is making so much sense for me today. It has been hard to reconcile my feelings towards it. It was hard coming back and not being able to relate to a majority of the people in my outbound group. Australia is def different to Europe; Rotary and pretty much just everything. I never had the struggle of a language (sometimes to my dismay, as I am officially monolingual!) or had bad host famillies. I had different struggles that I felt no one could understand. Sara has helped tons. I dont know just being able to talk to her in the car today was great, when things are settling back down!
Its not just that but I dont know, I just couldnt relate about the history or the places they have all been, and heck they have never been to an aussie beach or an aussie barbie or in the rural humid areas. It definately was tough. Just as it was tough while on exchange being one of the pros at English and with my ideals and values. I guess I am taking possession of my memories and moments in Aus. and of who I am. There should be no excuses, or I guesses! That is a goal, to declare, "THIS IS ME!" and not be insulted when some people dont get it.
Its amazing because this weekend helped me so much. I realized that I do have good friends in my outbound group that are just amazing (cheeeeezy!) And as I go through my photos of my trip to put on my presentation I am remembering all the memories I had just shoved in a drawer in my brain that were marked Aus and thats it. Like it was a been there done that, never think of that again scenario! But the photos are making me very happy, I am even able to confront the challenging photo that has reduced me to tears before. It also smacked me in the face and said "Kelsie how could you not be sure about it!".
The best part of all is when I do my presentations this week, I feel as if I will be unable to control the diarrhea of the mouth! That is how I feel right now! Muah to all those who have stood by me through everything and hears to those who will start to stand by me and allow me to stand by you!
Peace and hugs to all of you!
My whole year away is making so much sense for me today. It has been hard to reconcile my feelings towards it. It was hard coming back and not being able to relate to a majority of the people in my outbound group. Australia is def different to Europe; Rotary and pretty much just everything. I never had the struggle of a language (sometimes to my dismay, as I am officially monolingual!) or had bad host famillies. I had different struggles that I felt no one could understand. Sara has helped tons. I dont know just being able to talk to her in the car today was great, when things are settling back down!
Its not just that but I dont know, I just couldnt relate about the history or the places they have all been, and heck they have never been to an aussie beach or an aussie barbie or in the rural humid areas. It definately was tough. Just as it was tough while on exchange being one of the pros at English and with my ideals and values. I guess I am taking possession of my memories and moments in Aus. and of who I am. There should be no excuses, or I guesses! That is a goal, to declare, "THIS IS ME!" and not be insulted when some people dont get it.
Its amazing because this weekend helped me so much. I realized that I do have good friends in my outbound group that are just amazing (cheeeeezy!) And as I go through my photos of my trip to put on my presentation I am remembering all the memories I had just shoved in a drawer in my brain that were marked Aus and thats it. Like it was a been there done that, never think of that again scenario! But the photos are making me very happy, I am even able to confront the challenging photo that has reduced me to tears before. It also smacked me in the face and said "Kelsie how could you not be sure about it!".
The best part of all is when I do my presentations this week, I feel as if I will be unable to control the diarrhea of the mouth! That is how I feel right now! Muah to all those who have stood by me through everything and hears to those who will start to stand by me and allow me to stand by you!
Peace and hugs to all of you!