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Reasons,everyone always wants reasons why i am the way i am. Honestly i would like to know myself.So i write about what hurts, what feels good, what makes me cry, and what makes me feel.I want to know why:
I cry
I am screaming inside im happy for a moment and then i lose it.
im free but i hold back
i hate myself everytime i look in the mirror
i drown in my self-pitty
i eat a tub of ice cream, then i feel so much guilt that i cant move
i am ashamed
i hide from everything
i fee more then i can take
and i jus really want to know why i am unable to be whole. Was i born with a failure inside of me that doesnt allow me toi change? What if there where no reasons at all? I spend my days scared. What if i never change? What if i am the way i am forever adn there is nothing i can to about it. So i look for an answer to make the confusion go away. Everyday i wake up searching with the only hope that someday something will be found that will make this endless longing go away!