Summer's On Its Deathbed
I'd like to make some confessions.
I was stupid.
You were right.
I was wrong.
And I'm doing it again.
Ohey internet. :) Long time no see. I haven't posted here in forever. I sincerely miss ranting to myself. It's just that these past few months have just felt so lonely. So lonely in fact that I might be falling back into a place where I thought I'd never want to be again. That being said though, I don't have many other options. It's too late to go back to how things used to be now. I just miss having a support group I suppose. Even friends I know are my real friends aren't much help these days, everything is a joke, no one wants to hear it, everyone just wants to have funfunfun and never deal with the things that need to be dealt with. People need to grow up. Or maybe the problem is that they have, and I haven't. But that remains to be seen.
Anywho, I'm stressing out about college like crazy. It's sad that my entire life hinges on the fact that I get enough scholarships. Because if I don't take the right classes (instead of the ones I actually want to take,) and get perfect grades in those classes, then I won't get in the Top Ten, so I won't get enough scholarships to go to a college I want, which means I will be stuck. Here. For the rest of my life. It scares the living crap out of me, and no one understands what I'm going through because they all have other options. Other options of course being money. A luxury I do not have.
But talking about college makes me sad, for fear that it might not happen, so I think I'll just shut up and continue watching The Office reruns for now.
I was stupid.
You were right.
I was wrong.
And I'm doing it again.
Ohey internet. :) Long time no see. I haven't posted here in forever. I sincerely miss ranting to myself. It's just that these past few months have just felt so lonely. So lonely in fact that I might be falling back into a place where I thought I'd never want to be again. That being said though, I don't have many other options. It's too late to go back to how things used to be now. I just miss having a support group I suppose. Even friends I know are my real friends aren't much help these days, everything is a joke, no one wants to hear it, everyone just wants to have funfunfun and never deal with the things that need to be dealt with. People need to grow up. Or maybe the problem is that they have, and I haven't. But that remains to be seen.
Anywho, I'm stressing out about college like crazy. It's sad that my entire life hinges on the fact that I get enough scholarships. Because if I don't take the right classes (instead of the ones I actually want to take,) and get perfect grades in those classes, then I won't get in the Top Ten, so I won't get enough scholarships to go to a college I want, which means I will be stuck. Here. For the rest of my life. It scares the living crap out of me, and no one understands what I'm going through because they all have other options. Other options of course being money. A luxury I do not have.
But talking about college makes me sad, for fear that it might not happen, so I think I'll just shut up and continue watching The Office reruns for now.