Feel like letting go...
This is an entry full of cussing and ranting, you have been warned.
Okay,so I'm so damn close to just saying to hell with it and go slit my wrists. No wait,I'd want to be catapulted into a tree shredder, then put in different parcels and mailed to all the people who slowly made me this way! Fucking eh! Where the hell are the people that mean the most to me when I need them?!? I'm always there for them. Oh, but when it comes to my damn feelings everyones got something better to do! I really do feel like I could break and I don't want that to happen,I've still got a few things to live for. Like, I've got to find out what happens with Jim and Pam on The Office in the future! Yeah, I know sad right? One of the only things keeping me here is a damn tv show! But I don't have much for motivation. I'm so sick of it! Everyones got someone except me! Brittany has Caleb,Jewelee has Mike(Jewelee and I aren't that great of friends though,pretty much friends through Jeni and Brittany),Jeni has Mike(different from Jewelee's),and Amanda has Greg and all of her other damn friends! I mean it's not even over being with someone,it's mostly about friends. It really sucks because they've(Brittany,Jeni,and,Jewelee) all been friends with each other much longer than I've been friends with any of them. Every one of my goddamned friends have done this to me! And I've got news for them, I'M FUCKING SICK OF IT! I'm fucking sick of watching people get what they want while I get shit! Hell,none of them have really talked to me in over two months,for all they know I could be DEAD! Oh fucking well,I'm going to try to make it through this year to graduate then I'm getting the fuck out of this small hick shit hole of a town and forget about every damn person in it! Ha,if only it were that simple...
Oh,and to those friends: If we are still friends through this year,don't forget my damn birthday again like you did last year. That really fucking hurt. I remember all of yours,and get you presents. But for me? I don't even get a Happy Fucking Birthday!
My appoligies for all the cussing and ranting but I had to get this all out somewhere and seeing as how there's no one to talk to,what better place than here? Damnit I need a cigaratte...or a good slit to just the right vein.
love,
me
Okay,so I'm so damn close to just saying to hell with it and go slit my wrists. No wait,I'd want to be catapulted into a tree shredder, then put in different parcels and mailed to all the people who slowly made me this way! Fucking eh! Where the hell are the people that mean the most to me when I need them?!? I'm always there for them. Oh, but when it comes to my damn feelings everyones got something better to do! I really do feel like I could break and I don't want that to happen,I've still got a few things to live for. Like, I've got to find out what happens with Jim and Pam on The Office in the future! Yeah, I know sad right? One of the only things keeping me here is a damn tv show! But I don't have much for motivation. I'm so sick of it! Everyones got someone except me! Brittany has Caleb,Jewelee has Mike(Jewelee and I aren't that great of friends though,pretty much friends through Jeni and Brittany),Jeni has Mike(different from Jewelee's),and Amanda has Greg and all of her other damn friends! I mean it's not even over being with someone,it's mostly about friends. It really sucks because they've(Brittany,Jeni,and,Jewelee) all been friends with each other much longer than I've been friends with any of them. Every one of my goddamned friends have done this to me! And I've got news for them, I'M FUCKING SICK OF IT! I'm fucking sick of watching people get what they want while I get shit! Hell,none of them have really talked to me in over two months,for all they know I could be DEAD! Oh fucking well,I'm going to try to make it through this year to graduate then I'm getting the fuck out of this small hick shit hole of a town and forget about every damn person in it! Ha,if only it were that simple...
Oh,and to those friends: If we are still friends through this year,don't forget my damn birthday again like you did last year. That really fucking hurt. I remember all of yours,and get you presents. But for me? I don't even get a Happy Fucking Birthday!
My appoligies for all the cussing and ranting but I had to get this all out somewhere and seeing as how there's no one to talk to,what better place than here? Damnit I need a cigaratte...or a good slit to just the right vein.
love,
me