New Year, New ME
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haha ok that was just for fun... now here is this thing i wrote in myspace, sorry i'm just copying and pasting ;)
Okay, so I have a lot to update... please read it all and perhaps comment, I'd like feedback. Thx, y'all!
Last night, I cried myself to sleep. I was scared and emotionally and physically exhausted, not to mention still a little hung over (just dont ask--you know how crazy my body is). I listened to "Hallelujah" by Jeff Buckley over and over and over again...... and I cried and cried and was convinced I was a terrible person and I hated myself sooo much and I was ready to break up with Drew. I am so glad no one was online because I would have really scared you... btw austen, dont worry, i'm doing better.
Then, today, I went to the mall with Lydia and Kyle (I love you guys!) and I spent $200 on myself. I wanted to get a whole new look to go with my new me... so I spent $100 in Old Navy (because I had two $50 gift cards for there, and they have great staples, ex. a black shirt, a white tee, etc etc), and I spent $40 at American Eagle (because I needed a good pair of tight, hot, quality jeans), and I got some earrings and accessories and makeup and hair stuff... and I got my hair cut! It is shorter (shoulder length) and has layers and I like it sooooo much... it is MUCH more me. I think I look a lot more relaxed and fun and even possibly sexy hot in some of my stuff.
sooooo... a new year, a new start, a COMPLETELY new me. I am sick of being what everyone else wants me to me. I'm ready to surprise everyone and do some crazy stuff and be who I want to be. So. Get ready! I have some New Years Resolutions...
1. Do things that would get me in reeeeally big trouble... whether I get caught or not, meh, it doesnt matter.
2. Tell the people that I love, that I love them. Convince them of this. Be emotionally available for these amazing people.
3. Get to the point where I can look in the mirror and see myself as sexy, and beautiful, and happy. And healthy.
4. Stop cheating on my diet, damn me.
5. Develop my OWN opinions... not just what I'm told, by my friends or family or people who practice my faith.
6. Try to figure out what I truly do beleive. Am I really a Christian? Is THAT what I beleive? and why? because it's what I'm told?
7. Get my priorities straight. What should they be? And where do I fall in them?
8. BE MORE SOCIAL. Yes. You must all help me with this one. Party. Hang out. Whatever. Call me if you want a good time! I'm open to suggestions!
9. Learn to be ok with myself, and stop taking meds when I don't need them. Continue with therapy, and work hard to improve my self-esteem, self-image, and mood.
10. Be completely honest about everything with the people who I love. (ie. admitting above that I need to stop taking meds when I'm not sick)
yup, you heard me right. Let me be WILD, because theres always been that wild side somewhere within me, and I just never let it out. oh and, to start on .10, I want to let you all know that I am dealing with some serious issues and trying to make my life better, so I am going to need a lot of patience and support, at least for awhile. and...
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
I hope that 2005 will bring lots of surprises and growth and happiness.
Love, Kelsey
Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com
haha ok that was just for fun... now here is this thing i wrote in myspace, sorry i'm just copying and pasting ;)
Okay, so I have a lot to update... please read it all and perhaps comment, I'd like feedback. Thx, y'all!
Last night, I cried myself to sleep. I was scared and emotionally and physically exhausted, not to mention still a little hung over (just dont ask--you know how crazy my body is). I listened to "Hallelujah" by Jeff Buckley over and over and over again...... and I cried and cried and was convinced I was a terrible person and I hated myself sooo much and I was ready to break up with Drew. I am so glad no one was online because I would have really scared you... btw austen, dont worry, i'm doing better.
Then, today, I went to the mall with Lydia and Kyle (I love you guys!) and I spent $200 on myself. I wanted to get a whole new look to go with my new me... so I spent $100 in Old Navy (because I had two $50 gift cards for there, and they have great staples, ex. a black shirt, a white tee, etc etc), and I spent $40 at American Eagle (because I needed a good pair of tight, hot, quality jeans), and I got some earrings and accessories and makeup and hair stuff... and I got my hair cut! It is shorter (shoulder length) and has layers and I like it sooooo much... it is MUCH more me. I think I look a lot more relaxed and fun and even possibly sexy hot in some of my stuff.
sooooo... a new year, a new start, a COMPLETELY new me. I am sick of being what everyone else wants me to me. I'm ready to surprise everyone and do some crazy stuff and be who I want to be. So. Get ready! I have some New Years Resolutions...
1. Do things that would get me in reeeeally big trouble... whether I get caught or not, meh, it doesnt matter.
2. Tell the people that I love, that I love them. Convince them of this. Be emotionally available for these amazing people.
3. Get to the point where I can look in the mirror and see myself as sexy, and beautiful, and happy. And healthy.
4. Stop cheating on my diet, damn me.
5. Develop my OWN opinions... not just what I'm told, by my friends or family or people who practice my faith.
6. Try to figure out what I truly do beleive. Am I really a Christian? Is THAT what I beleive? and why? because it's what I'm told?
7. Get my priorities straight. What should they be? And where do I fall in them?
8. BE MORE SOCIAL. Yes. You must all help me with this one. Party. Hang out. Whatever. Call me if you want a good time! I'm open to suggestions!
9. Learn to be ok with myself, and stop taking meds when I don't need them. Continue with therapy, and work hard to improve my self-esteem, self-image, and mood.
10. Be completely honest about everything with the people who I love. (ie. admitting above that I need to stop taking meds when I'm not sick)
yup, you heard me right. Let me be WILD, because theres always been that wild side somewhere within me, and I just never let it out. oh and, to start on .10, I want to let you all know that I am dealing with some serious issues and trying to make my life better, so I am going to need a lot of patience and support, at least for awhile. and...
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
I hope that 2005 will bring lots of surprises and growth and happiness.
Love, Kelsey