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so um.. i can't remember if i updated yesterday or not but i just worked and that was it. manny bagged for me all day so that was fun. joel shut me downand said that nancy wanted to have a chat with everyone so manny and i went upstairs and got yelled at and we were the ONLY ones! so we were afraid that we just suck but it turns out that's all there was time for.
also last night dan IMed me.. i don't know if you remember him from my old journal but i wanted to marry him last summer hahaha but it was cool to talk to him tonight :) moving on.
today i layed around all day because i didn't feel so good and then lauren and i were going to go to the book store but we never made it there haha so instead we just hung out w/ caitlin boyd and lauren martin at lauren m's house.. we played pool and disney trivial pursuit and then went to ben and jerry's and it was tons of fun.
and now, for the depressing part of my evening:
so why don't i tell him for the first time that i actually am interested and would like to get to know him better and whatever and why doesn't he tell me i'm too young for 6 months and then try to tell me how he's such a bad person and that he doesn't want to get to know me because he has all of these problems that make him too bad for a "sweet" girl like me and he doesn't want me to think badly of him? and why doesn't he tell me that he does "dig" me but he doesn't want to care about me too much and that we won't work and he'll end up hating himself? and WHY doesn't he tell me that he's still involved with his EX anyway?!!! and why doesn't he tell me how dramatic she is and why don't i be the complete opposite? and why doesn't it not matter? why doesn't she judge him already but he won't start anything with me because he's afraid i'll judge him? why doesn't she be really beautiful and why don't i not be beautiful? and why don't i feel sad now?
and now i'm watching conan and i hate conan because JAY LENO is so much funnier.. i don't care what anyone else says.
also last night dan IMed me.. i don't know if you remember him from my old journal but i wanted to marry him last summer hahaha but it was cool to talk to him tonight :) moving on.
today i layed around all day because i didn't feel so good and then lauren and i were going to go to the book store but we never made it there haha so instead we just hung out w/ caitlin boyd and lauren martin at lauren m's house.. we played pool and disney trivial pursuit and then went to ben and jerry's and it was tons of fun.
and now, for the depressing part of my evening:
so why don't i tell him for the first time that i actually am interested and would like to get to know him better and whatever and why doesn't he tell me i'm too young for 6 months and then try to tell me how he's such a bad person and that he doesn't want to get to know me because he has all of these problems that make him too bad for a "sweet" girl like me and he doesn't want me to think badly of him? and why doesn't he tell me that he does "dig" me but he doesn't want to care about me too much and that we won't work and he'll end up hating himself? and WHY doesn't he tell me that he's still involved with his EX anyway?!!! and why doesn't he tell me how dramatic she is and why don't i be the complete opposite? and why doesn't it not matter? why doesn't she judge him already but he won't start anything with me because he's afraid i'll judge him? why doesn't she be really beautiful and why don't i not be beautiful? and why don't i feel sad now?
and now i'm watching conan and i hate conan because JAY LENO is so much funnier.. i don't care what anyone else says.