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So its almost 330am and I am still awake. I have so much on my mind that I don't know how to handle it all. I sometimes worry that maybe it will become to much for me to handle. I'm still going to New York this weekend. Though, I have no idea how I am going to tell my mom. She is going to freak out and I don't know if I can handle it. It's really the last thing I need right now. I wish I could explain but I can't. It's so hard and I just want to cry. I can't cry though. I have to be strong. Not just for myself, but for my family. Kendall is under alot of stress and so is AJ. I worry about him and I know he can't handle all of this shit going on at once. It's really becoming way to much for some to deal with. I know I am complaining and need to stop. I'm really annoying myself. But this is all I can do. I can't talk to alot of people in my life. It's really hard. My mom is not happy with me. Maybe I am spending to much time with AJ, but he makes me happy and I want to be happy. I don't want to sit at home and do nothing but watch TV. It's nice every now and then but its not what I want all the time. I love being able to go outside and just take in the sunshine. On another note, I had a dog today attack another dog. It was just what I needed. I hate when people can't leash their dogs. Hey guess what...its the law. O well. I am going to let this end. I'm starting to get sleepy. Have a great night all and a great day....ya know what...have a great life...who knows when I'll talk to ya again.
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