pants : what you dont like about others, is a reflection of what you dont like about yourself.

[kellzamabellz]

i just wrote a private livejournal
filled with some of the nastiest and hurtful things ive ever thought of
but could never say
i probably should say..
but wont.

update: everythings gone to shit.
i cant eat. cant sleep.
ok maybe a little more and more each day.
but all in all, i am a fuckin wreck.

ive felt more emotion in the past 2 weeks than i have in my whole college career.
which, is short.
but still.
why cant i just BE?

i almost sent troy to the fuckin fire pit.
"troy was just an innocent bystander"
lucky troy.
(hes a bear.. dont worry)
but still thats kind of a tear jerker.
i threw away years of history
and literally destroyed any physical evidence of memories
for what?!
for this. for these tired eyes, salty cheeks and an empty stomach.

thanks for reminding me what i feel like at my worst.
if this is love, i want out

you could, if you put your mind to it
but you think you will fail
so you dont even try.
sounds like someone i know...................

wouldnt this be nice:
doctors RX:
smoke 2 joints (then smoke some more)
drink a fifth of jack
and take 4 nyquil (or more as needed, but dont exceed 8 in a 24 hour period)