a lot to look forward to
today i went to visit jenny at her university b/c it will be the last time i see her before i head out to school. the freshman were moving into their dorm rooms today and she is an RA so there was a lot of interaction. from the moment i stepped onto campus, i was taken back by all the hotties there. omg.. every guy was hot! she wasn't in her room and i had no way to contact her so i just waited in the hall. i got to see all the hotties in her hall and even talked to some of them. the hottest one lived across the hall and we looked at each other.. it was cute but then i found out that he doesn't talk to jenny and is rude at times so that doesn't make him cool in my book. he seems to be one of those stereotypical football players from what jenny has said. what a shame. but then there were these other two guys.. dylan and josh.. they were so sweet esp josh. omg they were adorable. i thought i would be all shy with all those guys around but i was so outgoing that it was awesome. i was asking questions and talking without holding back. it really was liberating and i haven't felt that great since my lilly retreat back in may. i finally feel like i have nothing to lose and that i *can* put myself out there more. i might as well b/c i'm finally over you know who and i don't have any other guy holding me back anymore. i'm not desperate or anything like that but i'm finally ready to give the world all that i have. i've done a good job this past year but this year will be even better. i'm ready to explore my passion even further and get to know as many people as i can, especially guys. i'm going to walk up and strike a convo with derek and at least say hi. i'm going to do the same thing to stephen, james, and all the other people i found interesting at the retreat after a long summer. my life is waiting and i'll be damned if i'm going to sit by and let it pass me.
the rest of the day wasn't that eventful. went out to eat and then got the oil changed in my car. my bro also wanted to go to a school dance which shocked us all. but he didn't have a ticket so he couldn't get in.. stupid school. he finally wanted to hang out with the girl he's been talking to.. wow.. he's growing up so fast. lol. but we ended up sitting in the parking lot for about 30 minutes watching all the h.s. kids arrive.. it was quite funny and i felt so old.. even while visiting jenny's college being 2 years older than everyone.. lol. i can't believe i'm a junior in college already.. wow! but all that matters is that i'm a kid at heart ;)