here we go again
my day started off great. i was in such a deep natural sleep this morning it was beautiful. i haven't felt that refreshed in quite some time. then my dad woke me up b/c he was off from work and wanted to treat my bro and i out to lunch so i got excited and hopped out of bed. we did a little shopping after that and then headed home so i could get ready to go to work. it was absolutely beautiful outside here. just at 90 degrees with a nice cool breeze. i stayed outside for a few moments just taking in the beauty. it put me in such a good mood. i listened to up beat music and was actually excited about going to work. everything was gonig alright until everyone wanted to play catch. i have been having fun doing that with christina but lately everyone comes out and does it too. i was really excited about it today b/c it was so beautiful out. but for some reason today i totally sucked. i could not reach anyone for the life of me and for some reason i couldn't catch either. i really don't know why i was like that considering i was in such a good mood. but then stupid wesley had to laugh at each stupid mistake i made. i felt like i was back in 4th grade. at first i just rubbed it off but he kept doing it as i kept making an ass out of myself. i just wanted to cry. i know that shouldn't bother me but he shouldn't have been doing that. i could tell that no one wanted to throw to me and bill only did b/c he felt sorry for me. luckily jose said he had to get the programs signed by the players and i hadn't finished the programs so we both went it.. gave me an excuse to get the hell away from there. but then later they were all talking about how great christina is and how much of an arm she has. yada yada. she's been in sports her whole life. i only played sports for 1 year. i am SO tired of everyone thinking and acting like christina is God's gift to the world. i think everyone got the memo that everyone should worship christina this week but mine must have gotten lost in the mail. i guess it's b/c everyone realizes that sat is our last day but i don't think they care about me leaving. i dunno.. it's probably my hormones but i'm sick and tired of the christina worship. just have to keep reminding myself that in 2 days i will never have to see her apply lipgloss, toss her hair, wipe the dirt off her shorts, hear her ask if her make up is alright, etc.. i could go on and on but i will spare you. she is the most vain and superficial person i have ever met. and what i hate even moreso is that everyone worships the ground she walks on. gag me with a freakin spoon. 2 more days. i hope i survive.
i am so mad and bitter it's insane. i hate feeling this way. i'm so disappointed in humanity right now. i hate being surrounded with superficial and insensitive people. there is certainly more to life than pretty girls, beer, and sports. but not to the people i work with. i'm sorry.. these bitter rants will end come sunday. thank heavens. right now this is my only outlet so i'm sorry for all who read this. on a slight happier note, i got a set of trading cards that i'm going to get the players to sign tom and sat so i have each of their sigs on their card.. that'll be a cool thing to have. i wish i had something to do sat night after my last day of work. i'll have to think of something. oh well.. i need to go and do something so i won't keep writing about nothing in here.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!