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Why does My Chemical Romance suck so, so badly?
It's almost done. This year. Perhaps my career as a student. I don't know, honestly. I'm sorry to keep jerking everyone around, but I don't know what I'm going to be up to in a month. Not really. I'm about broke and I still haven't heard back from this job. Any job. I can't stay here if I don't have work. I can't afford to--no one can. Why does this fucking city have to be so expensive to live in?
You'd think that with so many people in one place cities would actually be cheaper to live in--but that's just the immediate countryboy sensibilities talking; I know what stuff costs and how much people are willing to charge for proximities and benefits in order to afford their own costs.
I'm just so stressed with everything. Having to do this last Mage thing over the course of an entire day has also put a bit of a burden on me. I have to have about 3,000 words written by Thursday for my foreign film course--I've seen about 2 of the seven movies I need to watch. Each is an art film, so it's about 2-2 1/2 hours per, which means I only have another ten hours of this to watch today. Dear Christ.
Should I cancel my graduation before getting this job? If I don't get a job I'm going to be shipped off to the states to work. I'll ship myself off--but if that happens, how the hell am I going to afford to keep a place going in Canada? I can't afford to get another loan. I can't afford anything right now.
I don't want to go back to Kansas. I don't want to go back to Kansas. I don't want to go back to Kansas.
But it's looking like the only way I'll be able to stay.
Fuck.
It's almost done. This year. Perhaps my career as a student. I don't know, honestly. I'm sorry to keep jerking everyone around, but I don't know what I'm going to be up to in a month. Not really. I'm about broke and I still haven't heard back from this job. Any job. I can't stay here if I don't have work. I can't afford to--no one can. Why does this fucking city have to be so expensive to live in?
You'd think that with so many people in one place cities would actually be cheaper to live in--but that's just the immediate countryboy sensibilities talking; I know what stuff costs and how much people are willing to charge for proximities and benefits in order to afford their own costs.
I'm just so stressed with everything. Having to do this last Mage thing over the course of an entire day has also put a bit of a burden on me. I have to have about 3,000 words written by Thursday for my foreign film course--I've seen about 2 of the seven movies I need to watch. Each is an art film, so it's about 2-2 1/2 hours per, which means I only have another ten hours of this to watch today. Dear Christ.
Should I cancel my graduation before getting this job? If I don't get a job I'm going to be shipped off to the states to work. I'll ship myself off--but if that happens, how the hell am I going to afford to keep a place going in Canada? I can't afford to get another loan. I can't afford anything right now.
I don't want to go back to Kansas. I don't want to go back to Kansas. I don't want to go back to Kansas.
But it's looking like the only way I'll be able to stay.
Fuck.