Le Miserable l'un
I don't think there has ever been a time where i have been more depressed. Actually I'm pretty sure there has been one, but as for now i cant think of that time. Tomorrow is my birthday. I'm turning 21, and for some reason i don't want to...not even at all. I have never been alone on my birthday...ever. Even last year. Last year Jim had just left for college, and i was sad cause i felt like i would never see him again, and on top of that it was just shitty out and raining all day. So that just made me feel worse...but i still had my family there for me. And my mom ended up taking me on a shopping spree...which just made me in a better mood. But now i have nobody. I'm all alone here in this big ass school with no friends and no family. And i know i'm being VERY pessimistic about this whole situation, but i really find it hard not to be. there are no sports, no clubs, NOTHING in my interest that i would be able to join. It's basically like im back at Suffolk (socially speaking) except this time i have no family. I have a big fucking house to come home to everyday that i share with two international students who barely speak english. I'm just really unhappy and lonely. And now with my birthday here, i'm feeling it 100 times worse because i have nobody to spend it with.
i feel like shit.
im going to sleep.
