you're not even thinking about it
you were new and something completely unexpected
a breath of fresh air
i do not regret what happened because you combed back my hair behind my ears
something that was only done when i was crying or if i had asked him to do while i was with him
i had been waiting for you to proceed for over a year
but there never seemed much hope so i left it as is
your kisses on my cheek and forehead let me know i'm in the right place
the little things you do make me realize that i am not alone
and even if this is something you choose not to pursue i am still content with myself
many of you believe that i always have to have someone
but you are wrong
i don't miss him yet
maybe thats because i got over missing him a long time ago when i realized i am everything short of his life
i've called him a million times within the past few days just to hear his voice and to see if everything was going well
i honestly can't imagine what it'll be like when i go back to school
but i still do not miss him
he was always right about something though
i always have to keep in touch with those who have made an impact on my life b/c time may be up for us, but not for our friendship
i sat in wonder last night when you told me that he has held me back from growing up
i wonder what his parents have said
if they even know yet
that's honestly what i miss most
having that second family to turn to
now my eyes are full of tears because i'm remembering everything they've done for me
and as i read this over and over, i am distracted by thoughts of the way he used to kiss me
that's one thing i always loved about him was his constant affection
i always questioned whether he loved me or not
but my heart knew he did
and now i can't help but wonder what is in store for you and i
i know the way you work and what you're thinking but you're still so hard to read
i know he's laughing at me now and saying to himself, "well what did you expect?"
i thought we'd make it to a year but i knew at the same time it'd be the most challening thing for us
there will be no us anymore and the four and half years of my life spent with him are now only a memory
a breath of fresh air
i do not regret what happened because you combed back my hair behind my ears
something that was only done when i was crying or if i had asked him to do while i was with him
i had been waiting for you to proceed for over a year
but there never seemed much hope so i left it as is
your kisses on my cheek and forehead let me know i'm in the right place
the little things you do make me realize that i am not alone
and even if this is something you choose not to pursue i am still content with myself
many of you believe that i always have to have someone
but you are wrong
i don't miss him yet
maybe thats because i got over missing him a long time ago when i realized i am everything short of his life
i've called him a million times within the past few days just to hear his voice and to see if everything was going well
i honestly can't imagine what it'll be like when i go back to school
but i still do not miss him
he was always right about something though
i always have to keep in touch with those who have made an impact on my life b/c time may be up for us, but not for our friendship
i sat in wonder last night when you told me that he has held me back from growing up
i wonder what his parents have said
if they even know yet
that's honestly what i miss most
having that second family to turn to
now my eyes are full of tears because i'm remembering everything they've done for me
and as i read this over and over, i am distracted by thoughts of the way he used to kiss me
that's one thing i always loved about him was his constant affection
i always questioned whether he loved me or not
but my heart knew he did
and now i can't help but wonder what is in store for you and i
i know the way you work and what you're thinking but you're still so hard to read
i know he's laughing at me now and saying to himself, "well what did you expect?"
i thought we'd make it to a year but i knew at the same time it'd be the most challening thing for us
there will be no us anymore and the four and half years of my life spent with him are now only a memory