How the girls could turn to ghosts before your eyes...
And I will leave under the cover
Of summer’s kiss upon the sky
Like the stone face of your lover
Just before she says goodbye
I was certain that the season could be held between my arms
But just as summer’s hold is fleeting
I was here but now I’m gone
I'm saying good-bye to my house, the only house that I've ever lived in for my life thus far.
Saying good-bye is hard. Saying good-bye to a place when you are unsure when you will return is hard. Saying good-bye to a room, a house, a yard is especially hard when you don't know if you will ever be able to call it yours again or step foot in it again. Saying good-bye to people is the hardest. So we are going to call it a "see ya later" for simplicity's sake.
I'm a lucky girl.
I'm going to miss the ocean. Even though I never swim in it when I go to the beach. Even though the water is always "too cold". I still love it, and I'm going to miss it when it's hours away from me and clearly out of reach.
I'm going to miss the sound my front door makes when it's being opened or closed. I'm going to miss the different sounds every body makes when they go up or down the stairs. I'm going to miss my skylight above my bed and how I can blame my early-rising tendencies on the break of dawn's early wake up call of sunlight on my eyelids. I'm going to miss falling asleep to the sound of the little koi pond's waterfall trickling in my backyard. I'm going to miss my quirky neighbors and making fun of them with my family. I'm going to miss how Reese looks so cute when she's sleeping. I'm going to miss how Harry looks so ridiculous when he scrunches his face up and one of his ears is flipped back. I'm going to miss watching bad TV with Katie. I'm going to miss food shopping for my mom. I am going to miss my dad cursing at petty inconveniences at ungodly hours of the morning.
There are a lot of things I am going to miss.
I'll make a lot of new memories.
I'm going to miss all of it more than I realize.
Now it's 8:46am. I'm sitting in my dorm, because it's where I am going to be living for the next nine months. I've been to about five frat parties in total within the past two nights. I don't start class until the 28th, therefore this is how it shall stay until then.
Send me a care package. Or just call or IM or e-mail hello and remind me there's more people outside of little AU, however awesome it may be.
By the way, this tomato grew in my yard, back home. Just thought I'd share.
