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summer has been fun and a reallization of who people really are. when i think back, i now have totally different aspects on people and i am stickin witht he ones i have now. i'm not too timid to finish an argument or tell someone they're wrong, as i might not have done four years ago. i can tell who are real friends, and the signs of a terible person. i'm more grown up and i won't take any shit anymore and i'm happy about it.
been vacationing down thecape for a coupole days. it was my brother's bday last week so we celebrated ti down the cape with a marathon of drinkin. i see more than ever how shitty my father is and it could never go back to way it was when i was five sitting on his knee. now we barely care to look at eachother at all. my mother's doing worse than ever in thehospital, ridden with numerous infections and pain and the doctors don't even know wat to do n e more. wat does that mean for the future? not happiness. but there's always hope.
started serving at work and i made more doing togo than serving, but i am doing it again tonite when i work at 3:30, so hopefuly it'll fill my mind with other junk. three people have quit in the last three days, and i've been there fo r all of the them and i just can't believe it.l in the fall the ruby crew will fall apart and disperse until next summer when us young'ens c ome back and fil up the parties again. most of my favorite people will probably be gone by then, so i suppose this time now is immortal.
it was elaina's bday yesterday and i got her a shirt and went over and stayed for like 20 mins, was not fun, and saw her tattooo (not wat i would have gotten...) made a purchase last night that will send me into sublime.
went to ben's party yesterday after work. well first hanna and katie picked me up and we were gunna go to robin's but we didn't have a ride home, and then we went to erin's for a minute but her neighbor talked to us and sounded like he was gunna call the cops, so we left after tellin' erin. so we went to ben's and smoked a b lunt and saw some people i really like. real people. and i was so happy to be around their drunkenness.
workin tonite and goin to the cape tomorrow for two days tos ee my cousein before he goes back to california and probably is arrested becuase of all the shit he gets into over there. i don't see why he doesnn'tjust move to CC. he's got a fuckin' mansion housoe, rich father, and a small townthat he could easily ride to the top of. but i guess you don't usualy notice a great thing until someone else points it out to you.
been vacationing down thecape for a coupole days. it was my brother's bday last week so we celebrated ti down the cape with a marathon of drinkin. i see more than ever how shitty my father is and it could never go back to way it was when i was five sitting on his knee. now we barely care to look at eachother at all. my mother's doing worse than ever in thehospital, ridden with numerous infections and pain and the doctors don't even know wat to do n e more. wat does that mean for the future? not happiness. but there's always hope.
started serving at work and i made more doing togo than serving, but i am doing it again tonite when i work at 3:30, so hopefuly it'll fill my mind with other junk. three people have quit in the last three days, and i've been there fo r all of the them and i just can't believe it.l in the fall the ruby crew will fall apart and disperse until next summer when us young'ens c ome back and fil up the parties again. most of my favorite people will probably be gone by then, so i suppose this time now is immortal.
it was elaina's bday yesterday and i got her a shirt and went over and stayed for like 20 mins, was not fun, and saw her tattooo (not wat i would have gotten...) made a purchase last night that will send me into sublime.
went to ben's party yesterday after work. well first hanna and katie picked me up and we were gunna go to robin's but we didn't have a ride home, and then we went to erin's for a minute but her neighbor talked to us and sounded like he was gunna call the cops, so we left after tellin' erin. so we went to ben's and smoked a b lunt and saw some people i really like. real people. and i was so happy to be around their drunkenness.
workin tonite and goin to the cape tomorrow for two days tos ee my cousein before he goes back to california and probably is arrested becuase of all the shit he gets into over there. i don't see why he doesnn'tjust move to CC. he's got a fuckin' mansion housoe, rich father, and a small townthat he could easily ride to the top of. but i guess you don't usualy notice a great thing until someone else points it out to you.