systemic lupus really sucks
um yeah so i go to the class that this paper was due in on monday. me beign all proud because i finished it and it wasnt due until wednesday. good think i wrote the date down wrong and it was due on monday. luckily i had it with me because i was going to go to office hours to go over it. God is cool, the one time in my life i do not procrastinate it has good reason. this week was so much better than last because i had hardly any stress and that made me happy. but next week is going to suck.
im kinda mad right now. i know im like. .all sick and stuff but i'm really sick of people treating me like i am broken. i guess its kind of a double standard i place on people though. there are some things that i need people to make exceptions for in my life (like my weird sleeping/eating patterns and me gettign sick easy and headaches) but i wish i was the only one who could make those decisions. i dont want people to tell me i cant do things because of it and i dont want people to act differnt because of it but at the same time sometimes i need them to. i know thats not fair bc i cant have it both ways. i guess i just want to be the only person who can have a say on what is okay and whats not. and that will never happen bc my parents think they have to control my life now so i dont end up back in the hospital. but i know how to take care of myself. uhh, sorry kids but i am just so frustrated with this right now.i know i have learned so much from all of this, but sometimes i really wish i could just be normal even if just for a day. i know u dont know where i am coming from .. no one could really.
im kinda mad right now. i know im like. .all sick and stuff but i'm really sick of people treating me like i am broken. i guess its kind of a double standard i place on people though. there are some things that i need people to make exceptions for in my life (like my weird sleeping/eating patterns and me gettign sick easy and headaches) but i wish i was the only one who could make those decisions. i dont want people to tell me i cant do things because of it and i dont want people to act differnt because of it but at the same time sometimes i need them to. i know thats not fair bc i cant have it both ways. i guess i just want to be the only person who can have a say on what is okay and whats not. and that will never happen bc my parents think they have to control my life now so i dont end up back in the hospital. but i know how to take care of myself. uhh, sorry kids but i am just so frustrated with this right now.i know i have learned so much from all of this, but sometimes i really wish i could just be normal even if just for a day. i know u dont know where i am coming from .. no one could really.