Apr 03, 2005 13:11
So, with the school year rapidly coming to a close and workload steadily increasing.... I am now pondering many things. The most important one at the moment deals with the situation between J and I about summer and what we should do.
I want to stay together, and possible see each other a few times this summer, reuniting at the end of vacation.
He wants to take a hiatus, hasn't really given a clear definition of what he means by this, and see what happens when I come back to charleston.
So what do I do? Since tomorrow is our two month anniversary, and we will have been dating over 3 months when this all takes place, I want answers to questions but have to wait so not to ruin our evening tomorrow. I have let him in way too much, and I do love him. I love being around him, spending my time with him and enjoying just thinking about him. So I am going to hurt this summer no matter what. He seems determined against any path that would let us stay together. He has had bad experiences with long-distance relationships, and he doesn't want to get burned. Which means to me he thinks I will be unfaithful. But he doesn't even want to chance it. So I have to know what he means with his "hiatus" idea. So far its sounds like he just doesn't want the expectation of us being a couple. I mean, I asked him if this meant we were breaking up, remaining friends, and getting back together, or if we were single and as long as we felt we might want each other once I get back.... soo many little things.
Some other things I have been pondering:
Where to work this summer?
IF I will return to Charleston.... (i kinda have to because transfer deadlines have already passed for fall, unless i take a semester off and go to perimeter, which I really can't since i will be a junior).
Changing my major?
Getting married?? (LOL, no not really)
Should i do study abroad?
So there are all my life's little woes that are intertwining with school work..... so if anyone has any suggestions, please leave them!