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I don't have much to write about, but I still felt compelled to make an entry. Things are getting busier at work now that the holidays are over. The numbers are through the roof and I'm getting my ass handed to me on a daily basis. UGH! Ever since I made the decision to move and leave this place, it seems like everything is that much more unbearable. Like, "oh God, I have to put up with this for how many more months???" where as before I was always just going through the motions, no end in sight. Now it kind of feels like I have this secret 'Get Out of Jail' card that I'm just waiting for the right moment to use. Things at work get more annoying every time I go in, especially now that for some unknown reason I'm on the boss' shit list. I get the feeling she doesn't like the new me, the one that asks for time off to travel, but it's not like I'm asking for time off that I don't deserve. I work my ass off for her, and I do a damn good job of it, so I deserve a week off every now and then. She wants me to be handcuffed to my job, always available to drop everything and run in whenever she calls. Sorry lady, maybe if you weren't an immature rude bitch, I'd be more willing to pick up the phone when you called and help you out of a bind. But since you suck at life, I'd rather just hit ignore.
I told mom and dad about the move and they're surprisingly very excited. They've even been very helpful with coming up with ideas for saving/making extra money to get out there. Originally I was gonna ship all my stuff out and fly out over the summer, but dad thinks it might be a better idea to rent a U-Haul and drive, that way I can take all my stuff at once, most importantly my fabulous bed. But I'm thinking that might not be a good idea because I'll have to bum a room for a little while until I find a place of my own, and where will I put all my stuff?? I might have to kiss my bed goodbye and my parents ship me the memory foam, I mean that is the most important part of my bed, the part I will miss the most.
I'm still very excited about leaving California. Not many people that live here understand why I would want to leave the Sunshine State for the east coast, but I don't need them to understand. I just need a change of scenery. I need to be in a place where there's more to do than get high/drunk and shoot the shit every night. I'm not trying to run away from anything, I just crave an adventure and that's exactly what I plan on getting out of this move. It will be a fresh start for me and that's very exciting. The only thing that still makes me nervous is when I think about my relationship with Vince and how this will affect it. I'm worried that living closer to him will make it easier to become a distraction, but I'm going to make sure I always have my own thing going on (i.e. work, school, friends, etc.) so that I'm not always relying on him for entertainment/company. Basically I'm just gonna take it all one day at a time and cross each bridge as I get to it. No sense worrying and stressing about things that haven't even happened, and might not ever happen anyway, right?
So I was watching the episode of Gilmore Girls last night where Lorelai's relationship with Snow goes sour and it made me really excited about moving to a snowy place. I hope that I grow to love snow, despite the trouble it causes most drivers and despite the bone-chilling coldness of it. I just think it's amazing to see everything get covered in a blanket of beautiful white snow. I was skyping with V this morning and it was snowing, so he faced the camera out the window and I got so so excited seeing the little white flurries falling from the sky. I can't wait to go visit him and experience it first hand. Hopefully he takes me ice skating, I asked him if we could go and he said yes, but we'll see what happens. I'm only going to be there for a short time so I don't know what we'll be able to do. I'll be happy just to stay indoors and cuddle, especially if you throw hot cocoa or hot toddies into the mix. Oooooh or Brandy apple cider! I'm very excited. 8 more sleeps!!
Last night I sat on my glasses and snapped them in half. This is great news, especially since I was at the eye doctor a few days ago trying to make an appointment only to find that the vision insurance I've been paying for does not exist. Yes, money is being taken out of my checks bi-weekly, but I'm not actually receiving any benefits??? Unacceptable. Now I have to hassle it all out with HR and try to get new glasses or at least contacts before next Wednesday. Oh it helps that I work like everyday up until I leave, NOT. Oh well, I'll make it work, and if I have to travel blind, then so be it. As long as I get this fixed before I move.
So I guess I had more to say than I thought, even though most of it is kind of random senseless babble haha. I have to go find something to eat, because it's been about a day and half since I put any real food into my body. I've been playing up the anorexia thing since V left, gotta be smokin' hot when I go back to visit him! So I started this super healthy "diet" where I allow myself 2 saltine crackers every 3 hours and if I get really hungry and feel like I'm gonna cave and eat something I'll drink a diet coke, cause that shit always fills me up. Hahaha super bad for me, I know. So today I'm gonna eat real food, but then it's back to saltines and diet cokes tomorrow. Okay, so I'm off to find food.
I told mom and dad about the move and they're surprisingly very excited. They've even been very helpful with coming up with ideas for saving/making extra money to get out there. Originally I was gonna ship all my stuff out and fly out over the summer, but dad thinks it might be a better idea to rent a U-Haul and drive, that way I can take all my stuff at once, most importantly my fabulous bed. But I'm thinking that might not be a good idea because I'll have to bum a room for a little while until I find a place of my own, and where will I put all my stuff?? I might have to kiss my bed goodbye and my parents ship me the memory foam, I mean that is the most important part of my bed, the part I will miss the most.
I'm still very excited about leaving California. Not many people that live here understand why I would want to leave the Sunshine State for the east coast, but I don't need them to understand. I just need a change of scenery. I need to be in a place where there's more to do than get high/drunk and shoot the shit every night. I'm not trying to run away from anything, I just crave an adventure and that's exactly what I plan on getting out of this move. It will be a fresh start for me and that's very exciting. The only thing that still makes me nervous is when I think about my relationship with Vince and how this will affect it. I'm worried that living closer to him will make it easier to become a distraction, but I'm going to make sure I always have my own thing going on (i.e. work, school, friends, etc.) so that I'm not always relying on him for entertainment/company. Basically I'm just gonna take it all one day at a time and cross each bridge as I get to it. No sense worrying and stressing about things that haven't even happened, and might not ever happen anyway, right?
So I was watching the episode of Gilmore Girls last night where Lorelai's relationship with Snow goes sour and it made me really excited about moving to a snowy place. I hope that I grow to love snow, despite the trouble it causes most drivers and despite the bone-chilling coldness of it. I just think it's amazing to see everything get covered in a blanket of beautiful white snow. I was skyping with V this morning and it was snowing, so he faced the camera out the window and I got so so excited seeing the little white flurries falling from the sky. I can't wait to go visit him and experience it first hand. Hopefully he takes me ice skating, I asked him if we could go and he said yes, but we'll see what happens. I'm only going to be there for a short time so I don't know what we'll be able to do. I'll be happy just to stay indoors and cuddle, especially if you throw hot cocoa or hot toddies into the mix. Oooooh or Brandy apple cider! I'm very excited. 8 more sleeps!!
Last night I sat on my glasses and snapped them in half. This is great news, especially since I was at the eye doctor a few days ago trying to make an appointment only to find that the vision insurance I've been paying for does not exist. Yes, money is being taken out of my checks bi-weekly, but I'm not actually receiving any benefits??? Unacceptable. Now I have to hassle it all out with HR and try to get new glasses or at least contacts before next Wednesday. Oh it helps that I work like everyday up until I leave, NOT. Oh well, I'll make it work, and if I have to travel blind, then so be it. As long as I get this fixed before I move.
So I guess I had more to say than I thought, even though most of it is kind of random senseless babble haha. I have to go find something to eat, because it's been about a day and half since I put any real food into my body. I've been playing up the anorexia thing since V left, gotta be smokin' hot when I go back to visit him! So I started this super healthy "diet" where I allow myself 2 saltine crackers every 3 hours and if I get really hungry and feel like I'm gonna cave and eat something I'll drink a diet coke, cause that shit always fills me up. Hahaha super bad for me, I know. So today I'm gonna eat real food, but then it's back to saltines and diet cokes tomorrow. Okay, so I'm off to find food.