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So the 19 year old I mentioned before? Yeah, not only did he stand me up, but he's pretty much quitting me cold turkey. That makes me sad because even though (in the beginning) I didn't want to go out with him, I still wanted to make a new friend. And we talked quite a bit, stuff that wasn't about dating, and I liked the guy. He was fun to talk to, and now I kinda miss him. He's like a stranger at work, when before he was always hanging around or making a joke or something. Even the other girls have noticed that he doesn't say hi or even acknowledge me anymore.
I feel like a real idiot letting all of this get to me, but as I said my confidence is a bit shaken. The second date I agree to go on after 5 years of relationships and I get stood up by a kid?? I feel old and boring. I can't even keep the young ones interested in me, if only as a friend! I dunno, maybe I'm just being sensitive or emotional. I am just getting over a period, that could possibly have something to do with it. I'm just feeling rejected, and I hate that feeling. Who doesn't? And the fact that I was rejected by a kid, well that just makes me feel old. And then I'm sad that I lost a potential friend, and confused about what went wrong. Wow, I'm a mess!
And to top everything I have the mother of all sore throats and no money for retail therapy. Juuuuuuust great.
I feel like a real idiot letting all of this get to me, but as I said my confidence is a bit shaken. The second date I agree to go on after 5 years of relationships and I get stood up by a kid?? I feel old and boring. I can't even keep the young ones interested in me, if only as a friend! I dunno, maybe I'm just being sensitive or emotional. I am just getting over a period, that could possibly have something to do with it. I'm just feeling rejected, and I hate that feeling. Who doesn't? And the fact that I was rejected by a kid, well that just makes me feel old. And then I'm sad that I lost a potential friend, and confused about what went wrong. Wow, I'm a mess!
And to top everything I have the mother of all sore throats and no money for retail therapy. Juuuuuuust great.