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So far I have successfully steered clear of the negative energy(ies) in my life. Of course, working a 12 hour day followed by a 10 is a huge help there. I have also planned a much needed trip to Vegas this weekend, with my girlie Jessica. We're gonna live it up. We just saw Sex and the City the other day, and I loved it. We'll probably see again in Vegas, and of course dance and party and have a hella fun time. I neeeeeeeed this. Can't wait.
It's kind of a bummer that I have to miss Alyssa's party, but at the same time I feel like I'm finally doing the right thing. Chris keeps telling me that I'm bringing everyone down and I keep causing drama. I really hate having that rep. Probably because I hate drama and I don't wanna rain on anyones parade. So instead of causing a bunch of drama the night of Alyssa's super fun birthday party, I will simply remove myself from the equation and let everyone have a good time. And if I'm not there, then Mike can go and no one has to worry about shit going down like it did last time. And I'm really in no rush to see or hear from him ever again so.....it's for the best.
I've put my feelings aside for long enough. I feel it's time for me to do what's best for ME. I've been in an awful funk for a long time now and I can't even come up with a good reason for how I let myself get there. But I know what's keeping it around, and I know how to at least start making it go away. I want to be happy again, and I think the only way to accomplish that is to start living my life for me again. Besides, it's MY life isn't it?
It's kind of a bummer that I have to miss Alyssa's party, but at the same time I feel like I'm finally doing the right thing. Chris keeps telling me that I'm bringing everyone down and I keep causing drama. I really hate having that rep. Probably because I hate drama and I don't wanna rain on anyones parade. So instead of causing a bunch of drama the night of Alyssa's super fun birthday party, I will simply remove myself from the equation and let everyone have a good time. And if I'm not there, then Mike can go and no one has to worry about shit going down like it did last time. And I'm really in no rush to see or hear from him ever again so.....it's for the best.
I've put my feelings aside for long enough. I feel it's time for me to do what's best for ME. I've been in an awful funk for a long time now and I can't even come up with a good reason for how I let myself get there. But I know what's keeping it around, and I know how to at least start making it go away. I want to be happy again, and I think the only way to accomplish that is to start living my life for me again. Besides, it's MY life isn't it?