"So I wait for confirmation that you're never gonna use your starting gun."
Today was awful.
I am exhausted, worn out, spent, used up. Enough already, can't we just get to the summer fun of walking around in tank tops and sunglasses and eating ice cream every day?
I miss being spontaneous and relaxed and not so cynical about everything. I think cynicism can ruin you. So can being locked up in a brick building way too many days of your life. Oh, and add in the fact that we don't do ANYTHING worthwhile while we are holed up there and you get a really boring and monotonous schedule. only 9 more days...
Dance was hard today, too. Our dance is soooooooo spastically fast, it's actually insane. She said that the fastest part was over and the rest we were going to learn was slower, but it really all seems fast to me. It's a cool dance, really, good music, good choreography and everything, but it's sooooo hard. Sooooo many turns, really fast turns, with legs in weird positions. We only have five classes left until the performance and i have no idea how we are going to get it clean.
You know those days when you are just so tired that you don't want to deal with anybody? Well today was one of those days, and my dad just chooses today to get mad at me, and my mom, too. Wow. Was really not in the mood or the right mind set to respond to that. So i just got more frustrated and they got more mad, and it's a lovely cycle really.
Hopefully tomorrow will be better than today was. I am going to try to be optimistic and say that i'm sure it will be better. Enough venting, gotta get it together. Phew.
P.S. I MISS RACHEL.
I am exhausted, worn out, spent, used up. Enough already, can't we just get to the summer fun of walking around in tank tops and sunglasses and eating ice cream every day?
I miss being spontaneous and relaxed and not so cynical about everything. I think cynicism can ruin you. So can being locked up in a brick building way too many days of your life. Oh, and add in the fact that we don't do ANYTHING worthwhile while we are holed up there and you get a really boring and monotonous schedule. only 9 more days...
Dance was hard today, too. Our dance is soooooooo spastically fast, it's actually insane. She said that the fastest part was over and the rest we were going to learn was slower, but it really all seems fast to me. It's a cool dance, really, good music, good choreography and everything, but it's sooooo hard. Sooooo many turns, really fast turns, with legs in weird positions. We only have five classes left until the performance and i have no idea how we are going to get it clean.
You know those days when you are just so tired that you don't want to deal with anybody? Well today was one of those days, and my dad just chooses today to get mad at me, and my mom, too. Wow. Was really not in the mood or the right mind set to respond to that. So i just got more frustrated and they got more mad, and it's a lovely cycle really.
Hopefully tomorrow will be better than today was. I am going to try to be optimistic and say that i'm sure it will be better. Enough venting, gotta get it together. Phew.
P.S. I MISS RACHEL.