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i can't take the late shift it fucks up my schedule. even when i get up early at the normal time and do things my body is like screaming for this post-work detox time and i should have been in bed an hour ago and i've got a few hours tomorrow morning before work but that's still pre-work putzing so it's not the same but i should really be in bed so i can actually be useful tomorrow but work workk. i dream about it and then i wake up and i spend all day there and everyone is mad at each other and a lot of us work our nuts off for 9 or so hours because we take some pride in our work and try to do a good job but we just get shit on every day because it's not good enough or burdening other people so it's like 9 hours every day of being surrounded by miserable people doing easy enough work that no one is happy with. so we all do the same thing, we go home and climb out of our awful work-state-of-minds and it makes it all the more miserable when we return but home home home is only there when it ends but work work is still there when you get back and no matter how many accomplishments you gather, there are 3 more fuck-ups waiting to snatch away your high. i feel good when i educate someone and give them some relief but it's not enough because there are so many people that don't understand.