my mind wanders
While I was doing a reading assignment for one of my classes yesterday I noticed that I would be reading a sentence and then suddenly my mind would be off somewhere else thinking about something entirely different. I would reading about ethnographic research and then I was thinking about something for one of my other classes, or replayed something that happened earlier in the day. I was also playing Christmas music while I was reading, so at some points I'd end up stop reading and pay attention tto the song, but then while listening to the song I would start daydreaming again, so my reading was completely out of my mind by then. I would snap back, and look down at my book and had no recollection of what I had just read AT ALL. At one point, I became aware that I was daydreaming and started thinking about how I could write a journal on it, and went off thinking about something else again. It was kinda ridiculous and I stopped reading completely because it had been a half hour and I only got through one page but didnt remember a thing.
I noticed I did it again later that afternoon while in class. There was a debate going on, and I kept drifting in and out of what they were saying. Mostly I kept flashing back to when I had my debate. Like I would notice little mannerisms that the speakers had and I would think back to my debate and try to think if I had any little tics. Also, I watched their eye contact and wondered if they were actually seeing the people in the audience. I remember when I would look up from my notes, I was so nervous that everyone was just a blur, I didn't see individual people, just blobs.
It's weird, I usually just tend to do this when I'm doing school work, because if I'm reading for enjoyment I can read it and comprehend it fine, and only occassionally start daydreaming. I also do it in the car, when I'm driving a familiar route, sometimes I notice that I'll still be singing along to the radio without even realizing it. I do it in the shower too, and then I end up forgetting whether I washed my hair or not. It's weird how the mind works. Mine is constantly going, I can never not think about anything, cuz when I try, I start thinking about not thinking about anything. I think this could also be a contributing factor to how long it takes me to fall asleep, because I'm thinking so much, my brain can't shut down!
I noticed I did it again later that afternoon while in class. There was a debate going on, and I kept drifting in and out of what they were saying. Mostly I kept flashing back to when I had my debate. Like I would notice little mannerisms that the speakers had and I would think back to my debate and try to think if I had any little tics. Also, I watched their eye contact and wondered if they were actually seeing the people in the audience. I remember when I would look up from my notes, I was so nervous that everyone was just a blur, I didn't see individual people, just blobs.
It's weird, I usually just tend to do this when I'm doing school work, because if I'm reading for enjoyment I can read it and comprehend it fine, and only occassionally start daydreaming. I also do it in the car, when I'm driving a familiar route, sometimes I notice that I'll still be singing along to the radio without even realizing it. I do it in the shower too, and then I end up forgetting whether I washed my hair or not. It's weird how the mind works. Mine is constantly going, I can never not think about anything, cuz when I try, I start thinking about not thinking about anything. I think this could also be a contributing factor to how long it takes me to fall asleep, because I'm thinking so much, my brain can't shut down!