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wow. thats the only word I can think of to describe today. it was just a crazy day. awesome, fun, frustrating, all at the same time. Why can't anything in life be simple anymore? why does everything have to be complicated? why do I make everything in my life so complicated? why can't I just go for what I want when I want it? why do I always worry about who I'm going to be hurting along the way? why does avoiding hurting people always mean that I'm hurting myself? does that mean I care more about other people than myself? why can't I just have all the answers right now? why can't I just know what I'm supposed to do? why can't someone just tell me what I should do and when I should do it, like in the good ol' days of being a little kid? I just want the answer to all my problems to show up on a billboard, or a piece of paper that just magically appears in my room right now? why am I such a nice person? I know its a good thing, but sometimes too much of a good thing is bad, right? sometimes my niceness gets me into trouble, and causes mass confusion. why is it so easy to talk to some people and be around them, and significantly more effort to talk to and be around others? how do you know when you've met the right person? how do you know who you should be with, and who you shouldn't? and why can't I figure out how to send a stupid text message on my phone?! I wonder if it'll cost for every time that i attempted to send the message.... hm. oh well. I didn't try that many times... okay, I'll stop ranting now. it doesn't help any, as I've discovered throughout the course of the day.