Jun 11, 2005 00:22
i keep looking around here trying to remember how it felt at first. because it's so comfortable now. i'm all wound up in things even. i think all these terrible thoughts about graham. i try to stop them when they come, i'm not sure quite why they do. nate said he is immature, but i know i have a lot of growing to do as well.
we went to a bar tonight and i dunno, i can't do that scene very well. and i want to freaking make out with someone already! i have a poorly planned crush on my boss. but i tend to fall in love with whoever i am around all the time. either that or we slowly drive one another insane. mmmhmm...
i have thought of jake, and dave, and ian, and hatfield. the crystal ship was playing as we left the bar. that song is only associated with jake to me.
i am happy though. life is fun. i am fun. my new friend stacy is fantastic. we're going to have a zaireeka party.
i've decided i'm going to new zealand/ in january. for a year. yup.
sleepy, but something in myu head keeps me from letting go. but i want to so much