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Today is officially the worst day I have had in a few years. This morning my Grandfather passed away, then a few hours later I find out my mother has apparantly taken a whole shitload of oxycontin. Turns out we don't really know when she took them, might have been all in one day, might have been over a few weeks. Regardless, she is not coherent and I think she may have some neurologic damage of some sort. She is acting just like my Grandmother did when she started having her mini strokes. I want to take her to the hospital but she keeps saying she does not want to go. My stepdad won't let me call an ambulance because they cant afford it. He says just let her sleep through the night and we will take her tomorrow no matter what she says. She has been sleeping since yesterday morning and I am terribly worried. I don't think I can handle it if I lost my Grandfather and my mother close together. I am spending the night so that I can help her if she falls yet again. My stepfather had a respitory attack earlier when he tried to help her up. I am so rediculously stressed out right now, I don't know what to think or how to feel. It is taking all my strength not to just sit around crying. Bad Fucking Day!!!! Sorry to bother all of you, just had to vent a little.