For the first time in quite a while, I really really feel what you're going through. I'm starting to understand why people say that love is so painful. It's because it's so amazing. :) It's not really the same situation, but I understand how you feel. Tonight I broke down completely at the thought of leaving Jeff. When you feel that close to someone, being separated from them is honestly the worst feeling in the entire world. It's scary and it's painful to a point I can't even describe.
I want you to know that I'm really truly genuinely happy that you found Bryan and yourself. It probably doesn't matter to you, but it's important for me to say that I had harbored some meanness and resentment from our relationship in high school (we were both pretty messed up there for awhile and the combination of us in those first couple of years really wasn't very healthy at times). Even though we've both changed I still felt insecure when I was around you. I'm sorry. I want you to know, insignificant as it probably is to you at this point, that I'm happy for you and I really want you to be happy.
So, sorry for my randomness, but it was something I really wanted to say. That's pretty much it.
Mmm...now I want to think of something funny to say to lighten the mood. Damn (I swore...that's kind of funny, right?)
Jenny, you have no idea how much I really appreciate that coming from you. I think out of everyone in High School you were a true friend to me and the one I hurt the most. We both were hurting in High School and found different ways of dealing with it. I hurt the people that cared about me and used everyone for what I could get. You took it all. For you to say what you just said had made me have complete and total respect for you. You are the much bigger person out of the both of us.
Thank you for being Happy for me. This is the first time in a long time I'm really happy with everything. Thank you for the advice and the acknowlegment that when he leaves it will be very hard to go on for the next two years. Thank you Jenny. I wish you the best of luck in everything. High School is the past. We are no longer those two girls that had a hard time dealing with what life threw at them.
I want you to know that I'm really truly genuinely happy that you found Bryan and yourself. It probably doesn't matter to you, but it's important for me to say that I had harbored some meanness and resentment from our relationship in high school (we were both pretty messed up there for awhile and the combination of us in those first couple of years really wasn't very healthy at times). Even though we've both changed I still felt insecure when I was around you. I'm sorry. I want you to know, insignificant as it probably is to you at this point, that I'm happy for you and I really want you to be happy.
So, sorry for my randomness, but it was something I really wanted to say. That's pretty much it.
Mmm...now I want to think of something funny to say to lighten the mood. Damn (I swore...that's kind of funny, right?)
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Thank you for being Happy for me. This is the first time in a long time I'm really happy with everything. Thank you for the advice and the acknowlegment that when he leaves it will be very hard to go on for the next two years. Thank you Jenny. I wish you the best of luck in everything. High School is the past. We are no longer those two girls that had a hard time dealing with what life threw at them.
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