so what do i do now
so today i got home from liz's and went to kaitlin's. kirstan came over and we went to clean offices with kaitlin's mom. courtney came over for a little bit to drop off the collage book thing she made in memory of kristen. it was so sweet.
kaitlin and i kept talking about and catching up on all the memories we've had together and it made me miss everything. i love her so much and i miss being best friends. sometimes i can't handle it when her parent's cry because i just feel so awful, but i'm glad to see that them and kaitlin are doing a little better. it's weird being here without hanging out with kristen. weird. anyways this should be a good sleepover.
on another note, i can't stop thinking about how much i hate it when people get into my life so much. i wish people would just let me live my life the way i want to. when people are always on my case about things it makes me want to rebel more and do the things i'm "not supposed to" because it makes me mad to know that people single me out and expect me to live a certain way. sorry mom. there are way more important things in life besides always finding something to bitch about with everyone. and i'm over caring what people think of me. seriously this is the first time i haven't cared what people think about me in my whole life. have whatever opinion you'd like to have about me. i'm young, i'm learning different things everyday, and sometimes i don't know how the fuck to act or what i'm supposed to do. i'm obviously not fit to be a role model for anyone, so i don't know why people continue to criticize and crituque my life. i know who i am, and the people that really care about me do, so fuck it, i don't feel like caring about the rest and i'm not going to.
katie, i'm so sorry. i love you and your mom i hope everything is okay. i'll pray for her tonight. try not to think about those what if's. i'm so over car accidents.
oh freaking brittany and laura are the best if you didn't already know.
k that's it. <3 you all.
kaitlin and i kept talking about and catching up on all the memories we've had together and it made me miss everything. i love her so much and i miss being best friends. sometimes i can't handle it when her parent's cry because i just feel so awful, but i'm glad to see that them and kaitlin are doing a little better. it's weird being here without hanging out with kristen. weird. anyways this should be a good sleepover.
on another note, i can't stop thinking about how much i hate it when people get into my life so much. i wish people would just let me live my life the way i want to. when people are always on my case about things it makes me want to rebel more and do the things i'm "not supposed to" because it makes me mad to know that people single me out and expect me to live a certain way. sorry mom. there are way more important things in life besides always finding something to bitch about with everyone. and i'm over caring what people think of me. seriously this is the first time i haven't cared what people think about me in my whole life. have whatever opinion you'd like to have about me. i'm young, i'm learning different things everyday, and sometimes i don't know how the fuck to act or what i'm supposed to do. i'm obviously not fit to be a role model for anyone, so i don't know why people continue to criticize and crituque my life. i know who i am, and the people that really care about me do, so fuck it, i don't feel like caring about the rest and i'm not going to.
katie, i'm so sorry. i love you and your mom i hope everything is okay. i'll pray for her tonight. try not to think about those what if's. i'm so over car accidents.
oh freaking brittany and laura are the best if you didn't already know.
k that's it. <3 you all.