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Ok Im going on weight watchers i honestly relized how fat i was the other day. Sorry I havent updated in awhile didnt see any reason to. Lately ive been working at Precious Possessions the daycare and I love it. Im probably getting a honda civic and um a dog! Yessss. Lets see..life has seemed to be a bit weird for me lately. So many changed im getting older, my birthday is soon is seems as if i shouldnt be so confused. Im confused because ifeel like my life is set and I dont want it to be set. Ive so little self esteem. Sometimes i hate myself and it just ruins my day. I hate how my chin is too long, I hate how my nose is big, I hate my body, and i hate that i let "him" get away. It seems like everything in my life should be the complete opposite of what it is. I mean is life supposed to be this way? Am i supposed to feel this way. Does anybody else feel this way? Im not a very good friend either. I dont return phone calls because i hate talking on the phone. Im addicted to food and i need to stop. I NEED TO JUST STOP i hate my body. I know youre thinking shut up but i dont care what you think its how i see myself. Im loved by someone very special but its almost like so many people have hurt me i need alot more love to make up for it. Im a sorry excuse for a human being. Im not depressed just feel a little weird. And NO i do not feel weird all the time just here recently i guess its part of growing up. And some advice, dont be the one that got away. Oh yeah on a positive note i got a digital camera too bad im ugly but i will post pictures anyways and you can tell me how ugly i am. Ok, thanks.