disappointing..
Overall I had a great summer but the last couple weeks were disappointing. I dont know things change i guess and that's all there is to it. Last night I told someone how i felt about them and i dont know whats gonna happen now. It's scary to open up to someone like that. I'm just sad and confused. My girls have been there for me tho. Late night tent talks, swinging, walmart, screaming sad songs in my car. I dont know I honestly have no idea where i would be without them. I take them for granted sometimes but they are really good to me. I love you guys! thanks for putting up with my whining. The only thing that i can think of right now is a song that explains everything i feel. We heard it at the concert for the first time in a while and i didnt think that it would affect me as much as it did. Last night Reb and I just sat in my car and screamed out the words to I'm movin on and i think it was the only thing that kept me from crying last night. JLU's been really helpful to, she sent a thing to my away message and it was really sweet of her. Thanks J to the Fricken! I'm so lucky to have my friends. Today I had an eye doctor appt. and i think we might go watch AOC at tennis! But i dont feel like doing this anymore so.. i dont know things change and people change i guess.
I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of w.e.a.k.n.e.s.s
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on
I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone...
I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on ..
i dont know what to do... :(