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been a while since of done this...
life has been doing pretty much ok.. been a few rouch spots here and there but over all not shabby. ive been doing a lot of thinking lately about life and how everything seems to have been falling apart at the seems for me...
trying to balance school, soccer, social and sleep has been kinda tough. its gotton worse the past few days... i found out that some of the girls talk about how i spend so much time with joe and not with them... and how hope gets kicked out of the room... and i feel horrid about not being able to spend the time with them... and i wish that i could just make everyone happy... i cant though and it bothers me... i cried last night for a few hours... i just want everyone to be happy and not angry at me or angry at any sort of situation that im in. i know that a few of the girls dont mean to be mean but it kinda ends up happening... i want them to be ok with me... but i dont know how i can make them ok with me wanting to spend time with him without making hope uncomfortable or stepping on anyone's toes... damn... i wish relationships came with an instruction booklet...
life has been doing pretty much ok.. been a few rouch spots here and there but over all not shabby. ive been doing a lot of thinking lately about life and how everything seems to have been falling apart at the seems for me...
trying to balance school, soccer, social and sleep has been kinda tough. its gotton worse the past few days... i found out that some of the girls talk about how i spend so much time with joe and not with them... and how hope gets kicked out of the room... and i feel horrid about not being able to spend the time with them... and i wish that i could just make everyone happy... i cant though and it bothers me... i cried last night for a few hours... i just want everyone to be happy and not angry at me or angry at any sort of situation that im in. i know that a few of the girls dont mean to be mean but it kinda ends up happening... i want them to be ok with me... but i dont know how i can make them ok with me wanting to spend time with him without making hope uncomfortable or stepping on anyone's toes... damn... i wish relationships came with an instruction booklet...