RE: Fill: My Monster (J2) 3/4
anonymous
February 2 2020, 03:19:05 UTC
“Jared, wait!”
Jensen followed him, but Jared had locked himself into the bathroom and Jensen could hear the water running. Jensen started pacing the hallway. It took a long time for Jared to come out but when he did, all traces of blood were gone.
He couldn’t look Jensen in the eyes.
“Jared?”
“I never wanted you to see me like this.” Jared’s voice was hoarse. “I hate being like this.”
“But you enjoyed it. The heart, I mean.”
Jared looked up, and his expression was harsh. “But I’m not supposed to. I don’t... I don’t need human hearts, I can get by without them. And I’m not supposed to enjoy them anyway; it’s bad and evil and I don’t... I don’t want to hurt anyone.” His voice got quieter and quieter until it finally died away.
Whoever had told Jared to deny this part of himself had truly down a number on him. But no more.
Jensen took Jared’s hand, slowly pulled him against his body. “I know you don’t want to hurt anyone. But this is who you are.”
“A monster,” Jared said desperately.
“No.” Jensen fiercely shook his head. “No, Jay, you’re good, you’re sunshine and laughter, you’re kind and warm and gentle. You’re many things, but you’re no monster.” Jensen pressed a kiss to his mouth and then another one. “I mean, look at you, you’re making yourself suffer to protect a bunch of scumbags.” Jensen kissed him again, carefully held Jared’s face in his hands. “But you’re starving yourself.”
Jared looked so torn, in so much pain.
“Let me take this burden from you.”
Jared swallowed. “You... this was not the first time you’ve killed someone.”
Jensen took a deep breath. “No. But it was the first time I had a purpose.” Jensen gave Jared a small smile. “It’s like the universe brought me to you. We’re perfect for each other.”
Jared shook his head. “You... you kill people?” He said it like he still couldn’t believe it. “Why? And, how long? And you broke into my basement!” He stepped back and even though it hurt, Jensen had to let him. He’d known this was the risk he took.
“If I-will you kill me too?” Jared asked.
“I would never.”
“But I know,” Jared said. “I could tell people.”
Jensen shrugged. “Wouldn’t be the first time I left town and started over.”
Never taking his eyes off Jensen, Jared took his phone out of his pocket.
Jensen went cold all over. Jared wasn’t going to accept him. He wasn’t going to love him anymore. Jensen swallowed, blinked against the sting in his eyes. Well. He had to live with that.
Jared dialed and raised the phone to his ear.
“Nine-one-one, what is your emergency?”
Jensen closed his eyes, felt the darkness wash over him. Of course, Jared wouldn’t accept this. Jared was too good, too bright. Jensen had thought he could win Jared’s heart by gifting him all the hearts in the world, but of course, that was stupid, so stupid.
Jensen turned around and walked towards the door. His feet were heavy and his heart was cold. He’d never loved anyone like he loved Jared.
“Sorry, butt dial,” Jared said behind him. “Stupid phone. Sorry for the inconvenience.”
Jensen stopped. His heart started beating in overdrive. Slowly, he turned around.
Jared was looking at him helplessly, eyes wide and disbelieving. “You’re just letting me call the police?”
“I love you. I could never hurt you.” Jensen shrugged. “There’s always been this dark part inside of me, but that’s just one part of me. And now, with you, it could finally be for some good.”
Jared let out a disbelieving laugh. “So what, you’re the monster?”
“Your monster. Let me be your monster.”
“I can’t.” Jared swallowed. “I can’t do this. I fought my whole life against this.”
RE: Fill: My Monster (J2) 4/4
anonymous
February 2 2020, 03:20:32 UTC
“And you never should have had to do that,” Jensen said. “And now, you don’t have to anymore. Because I’ll do it for you.”
Jared was shaking his head again, but his eyes were still fixed on Jensen, so Jensen took the few steps separating them and kissed him again. And Jared kissed him back. Desperately. He tasted like mouthwash. Jensen was disappointed he couldn’t taste the iron on his tongue. Maybe next time.
When Jared drew back, Jensen let him.
But Jared just leaned against him, hooked his chin over Jensen’s shoulder. “I always knew there was something off about you. But I didn’t care.”
Jensen’s heart wanted to beat out of his chest. “Do you care now?”
“I know I should,” Jared said slowly. “But I love you. And for once in my life, I want to be selfish.”
Jensen kissed him, again and again, pressed Jared against the wall to get some leverage, some friction on his aching dick. Jared moaned and held on tight, opened his mouth to Jensen’s.
“You deserve everything,” Jensen said as he started walking Jared back towards his bedroom.
And afterward, he’d clean out Jared’s downstairs fridge filled with all those puny animal hearts. Jared deserved only the best, and Jensen would make sure that he’d never be wanting again.
RE: Fill: My Monster (J2) 4/4kelleighFebruary 2 2020, 03:51:36 UTC
This was my prompt and I loooooooooooooooooove where you went with it. A monster trying NOT to be one, and his lover stepping comfortably and willingly into that role so he wouldn't have to. Just damn, awesome job.
Jensen followed him, but Jared had locked himself into the bathroom and Jensen could hear the water running. Jensen started pacing the hallway. It took a long time for Jared to come out but when he did, all traces of blood were gone.
He couldn’t look Jensen in the eyes.
“Jared?”
“I never wanted you to see me like this.” Jared’s voice was hoarse. “I hate being like this.”
“But you enjoyed it. The heart, I mean.”
Jared looked up, and his expression was harsh. “But I’m not supposed to. I don’t... I don’t need human hearts, I can get by without them. And I’m not supposed to enjoy them anyway; it’s bad and evil and I don’t... I don’t want to hurt anyone.” His voice got quieter and quieter until it finally died away.
Whoever had told Jared to deny this part of himself had truly down a number on him. But no more.
Jensen took Jared’s hand, slowly pulled him against his body. “I know you don’t want to hurt anyone. But this is who you are.”
“A monster,” Jared said desperately.
“No.” Jensen fiercely shook his head. “No, Jay, you’re good, you’re sunshine and laughter, you’re kind and warm and gentle. You’re many things, but you’re no monster.” Jensen pressed a kiss to his mouth and then another one. “I mean, look at you, you’re making yourself suffer to protect a bunch of scumbags.” Jensen kissed him again, carefully held Jared’s face in his hands. “But you’re starving yourself.”
Jared looked so torn, in so much pain.
“Let me take this burden from you.”
Jared swallowed. “You... this was not the first time you’ve killed someone.”
Jensen took a deep breath. “No. But it was the first time I had a purpose.” Jensen gave Jared a small smile. “It’s like the universe brought me to you. We’re perfect for each other.”
Jared shook his head. “You... you kill people?” He said it like he still couldn’t believe it. “Why? And, how long? And you broke into my basement!” He stepped back and even though it hurt, Jensen had to let him. He’d known this was the risk he took.
“If I-will you kill me too?” Jared asked.
“I would never.”
“But I know,” Jared said. “I could tell people.”
Jensen shrugged. “Wouldn’t be the first time I left town and started over.”
Never taking his eyes off Jensen, Jared took his phone out of his pocket.
Jensen went cold all over. Jared wasn’t going to accept him. He wasn’t going to love him anymore. Jensen swallowed, blinked against the sting in his eyes. Well. He had to live with that.
Jared dialed and raised the phone to his ear.
“Nine-one-one, what is your emergency?”
Jensen closed his eyes, felt the darkness wash over him. Of course, Jared wouldn’t accept this. Jared was too good, too bright. Jensen had thought he could win Jared’s heart by gifting him all the hearts in the world, but of course, that was stupid, so stupid.
Jensen turned around and walked towards the door. His feet were heavy and his heart was cold. He’d never loved anyone like he loved Jared.
“Sorry, butt dial,” Jared said behind him. “Stupid phone. Sorry for the inconvenience.”
Jensen stopped. His heart started beating in overdrive. Slowly, he turned around.
Jared was looking at him helplessly, eyes wide and disbelieving. “You’re just letting me call the police?”
“I love you. I could never hurt you.” Jensen shrugged. “There’s always been this dark part inside of me, but that’s just one part of me. And now, with you, it could finally be for some good.”
Jared let out a disbelieving laugh. “So what, you’re the monster?”
“Your monster. Let me be your monster.”
“I can’t.” Jared swallowed. “I can’t do this. I fought my whole life against this.”
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Jared was shaking his head again, but his eyes were still fixed on Jensen, so Jensen took the few steps separating them and kissed him again. And Jared kissed him back. Desperately. He tasted like mouthwash. Jensen was disappointed he couldn’t taste the iron on his tongue. Maybe next time.
When Jared drew back, Jensen let him.
But Jared just leaned against him, hooked his chin over Jensen’s shoulder. “I always knew there was something off about you. But I didn’t care.”
Jensen’s heart wanted to beat out of his chest. “Do you care now?”
“I know I should,” Jared said slowly. “But I love you. And for once in my life, I want to be selfish.”
Jensen kissed him, again and again, pressed Jared against the wall to get some leverage, some friction on his aching dick. Jared moaned and held on tight, opened his mouth to Jensen’s.
“You deserve everything,” Jensen said as he started walking Jared back towards his bedroom.
And afterward, he’d clean out Jared’s downstairs fridge filled with all those puny animal hearts. Jared deserved only the best, and Jensen would make sure that he’d never be wanting again.
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I love that Jared actually dialed 911 on the spot, testing Jensen, and Jensen let him because even monsters can love.
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Thank you!!!
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