I Understand Why Suicide Rates Rise During the Holidays....
I really need to stop watching TV - I never was much of a TV watcher until this year...
And already - its Thanksgiving and Christmas shows all over the freakin' place.... yea - they are sitcoms - but there is still shit in those shows that can totally bring a person down.
Blah. I didn't spend last Christmas with my family (well, the extended family Christmas Eve thing) - and I just really don't feel like all the family crap right now.
I doubt that will change.
If anybody knows of anything that will take you away from your life (not talking suicide) faster than the military - I'd be interested.
In any case - I'm just in a bummy mood. And it's only November 11 and I already feel how badly the holidays are going to suck... again.
Last year - Christmas was about losing a friend who I had previously dated but who asked me to marry him on Christmas Eve....ugh. And New Years...ahhh... New Years - pretty uneventful but still fun. Was planning on spending it alone with two bottles of champagne but I believe thats the first night I squeezed into Soni's extra school girl skirt and she convinced me to have a good drunken time...
Which was better than the year before that when I was dragged out to some cold spot on the river or the lake with a bunch of people I didn't know, a few I did, and a boyfriend who forgot I was alive for the first few hours we were there.
I used to love New Years. Now - I just don't care.
In any case, this is probably the last post I will make here. I'm tired of these journals - its been a few years and its just not what it used to be. I made a note on the info page. I'll probably leave this journal active for a little while so I can keep up on my jenny-poo and a few other people - but I rarely come on here anyway....
I made one of my email addy's visible if anyone wants to keep in touch - but if you have a different email addy (a la Cox) keep that one.
Take care all and have a wonderful end of year and new one to come.
*hugs*
- the former KellieKitten
And already - its Thanksgiving and Christmas shows all over the freakin' place.... yea - they are sitcoms - but there is still shit in those shows that can totally bring a person down.
Blah. I didn't spend last Christmas with my family (well, the extended family Christmas Eve thing) - and I just really don't feel like all the family crap right now.
I doubt that will change.
If anybody knows of anything that will take you away from your life (not talking suicide) faster than the military - I'd be interested.
In any case - I'm just in a bummy mood. And it's only November 11 and I already feel how badly the holidays are going to suck... again.
Last year - Christmas was about losing a friend who I had previously dated but who asked me to marry him on Christmas Eve....ugh. And New Years...ahhh... New Years - pretty uneventful but still fun. Was planning on spending it alone with two bottles of champagne but I believe thats the first night I squeezed into Soni's extra school girl skirt and she convinced me to have a good drunken time...
Which was better than the year before that when I was dragged out to some cold spot on the river or the lake with a bunch of people I didn't know, a few I did, and a boyfriend who forgot I was alive for the first few hours we were there.
I used to love New Years. Now - I just don't care.
In any case, this is probably the last post I will make here. I'm tired of these journals - its been a few years and its just not what it used to be. I made a note on the info page. I'll probably leave this journal active for a little while so I can keep up on my jenny-poo and a few other people - but I rarely come on here anyway....
I made one of my email addy's visible if anyone wants to keep in touch - but if you have a different email addy (a la Cox) keep that one.
Take care all and have a wonderful end of year and new one to come.
*hugs*
- the former KellieKitten