For the Curious
I sent the letter. I think I knew when I posted on here that I was going to do it, but I hadn't convinced my conscious brain that I was going to do it. I was just getting around to realizing that I was going to do it. Holding all of that in was just getting to be too much and frankly not very good.
So how did it go?
Things are pretty much how they were, or at least, so she says. She's not ready for a relationship with anyone because of her ex, doesn't see why it should affect our friendship and that was pretty much that. Am I convinced of that? I'm not so sure.
It could be something else entirely, lord know that I tend to over think things and read into them too much. But in the last few days, about a day or two after I gave the letter to her, she's been really nonresponsiive to me. We've been talking, but it's been a lot less than normal and she often responds with short, one or two word things after long periods between her responses. And sometimes just flat out ignores some things I say or ask.
She says that she is feeling bleh. I know she wasn't feeling well for a few days, and she says this is both physical and something else. But she doesn't want to talk about whatever the something else is, but assures me that it doesn't have anything to do with me. There is a part of me though that can't help but feel like it is, given the timing of this coming after the letter and everything. I don't know. I am probably reading into it what I shouldn't. I know I have been in similar situations. Just this situations leaves me uncertain and a bit uncomfortable. Normally we can talk about whatever with each other, and I wonder if some distance is growing now, because that is how it feels.
I guess there is nothing I can do but... wait and see what happens over time. I just hope I don't get caught up too much in my own head and overthinking everything and make it worse in the process, for either of us.
Knowing me though I've probably already done something like that.
So how did it go?
Things are pretty much how they were, or at least, so she says. She's not ready for a relationship with anyone because of her ex, doesn't see why it should affect our friendship and that was pretty much that. Am I convinced of that? I'm not so sure.
It could be something else entirely, lord know that I tend to over think things and read into them too much. But in the last few days, about a day or two after I gave the letter to her, she's been really nonresponsiive to me. We've been talking, but it's been a lot less than normal and she often responds with short, one or two word things after long periods between her responses. And sometimes just flat out ignores some things I say or ask.
She says that she is feeling bleh. I know she wasn't feeling well for a few days, and she says this is both physical and something else. But she doesn't want to talk about whatever the something else is, but assures me that it doesn't have anything to do with me. There is a part of me though that can't help but feel like it is, given the timing of this coming after the letter and everything. I don't know. I am probably reading into it what I shouldn't. I know I have been in similar situations. Just this situations leaves me uncertain and a bit uncomfortable. Normally we can talk about whatever with each other, and I wonder if some distance is growing now, because that is how it feels.
I guess there is nothing I can do but... wait and see what happens over time. I just hope I don't get caught up too much in my own head and overthinking everything and make it worse in the process, for either of us.
Knowing me though I've probably already done something like that.