Ow.

[kelessa]

You know, usually when I'm in emotional pain, it's because of something that's happened to me.

This week has been crap for a lot of people. It was mediocre for me, but a lot of people have been made really unhappy this week. I feel really, truly bad about it, because I can't help any of them. Not really. I can be there, and I can try to be a source of joy, but it's so useless.

Tonight, however, the pain I'm in is from Doctor Who. I know, it's such a ridiculous thing to be hurt by, considering the magnitude of crap going on. But I watched the end of season two tonight. I cried for ten minutes at the end of the last episode. Cried. Tears. Choking. It makes my eyes water to think about it now, two hours later. Ow.

So I'm going to listen to the song Jackie linked to until I'm done online, then I'm going to listen to some Sarah Harmer and curl up with my cat and try to pretend pain like that doesn't exist. People don't really get torn apart before they can say goodbye. People don't really ruin each other's lives. People don't really give reasons to cry.

Then I'm going to sleep, and if I can manage to get through the morning and out of the house, I'll be fine. I just need to get through that door.

But oh God. Ow. Ow ow ow.

Please just make everything better. Someone, somewhere, please fix it all.