just thinking
ok so here i am thinking about certain things and i just can't stop. as much as i try to get over it, it keeps playing over and over in my head. why did i even think of doing it? was it the heat of the moment? i regret it so much. i don't know what came over me. i'm not like that. maybe i did it because all of my feelings were built up and they were just ready to burst out. i really don't know and i really wish i did. questions were left unanswered, thoughts were spilled out on the table, and feelings just burst...not just by me, but by both of us. it's so hard to think stop thinking about it. i don't know what to do. i can't say i give up because i don't. i don't want to give up. i'm trying my hardest and there are things i do have to work on, i understand that. but i'm not the only one at fault. i hope that's understood as well. things are so hard right now, but i know i can handle it. i can overcome it and come out strong in the end. i just don't know what to do anymore. i'm just so confused. i want things to be the way they used to be. when things were carefree. i'm just feeling so emotionally unstable right now. too many thoughts are running through my head. my headaches are becoming more frequent and more painful. i just don't know. i wish i did though. things would be so much easier.