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i've basically become a waste of life.
i dont get out of bed to 11 at the earliest.
i NEED a job, but yet i havent even started to look for one. i'm broke. to the fullest sense. Dad is not willing to really give me money either, and yet he doesnt want me to get a job. he wants me to have a carefree summer.
I think a job would do me good though. infact, if i ever get around to getting 1 job, i think i may get 2 so i have no free time. i dont want free time b/c when i have free time i start to think, and recently that hasnt been good. I can pinpoint my problem. i can name my problem. it's quite simple really, only 4 letters.
i need to learn to forget. and move on. especially how to move on.
other than that my first year of college was spectacular. i want to go back. now.
home is empty- literally.
Mom basically lives with her b/f...except that she still refuses to give in and move her clothes over there so she comes home every morning at 5am to get dressed and then goes to work and comes back after work and changes and goes back over to his house.
Will is staying at school for the summer semester.
me, i'm here. alone in a house that is basically mine. Mom even said i could move into her room.
Eventually they're going to sell the house, i said i was okay with that as long as they bought me an appartment. Give me a place that is actually mine.